*DISCONTINUED* Depression with a side of anxiety (disabled, trans deku AU)

Chapter 5: Straight out of a nightmare + A/N

A/N: Hey guys! Sorry for not uploading in awhile. Online school has been stressful. Anyways I want to take this time to say, I'm starting a new Fic. That doesn't mean I will stop writing this fic tho. Just updates may be a little slower. Anyways, Thanks for 200 views!

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!Trigger warning!

Eating disorders

Depression

Self harm

Mentions of R*pe

Gayness

Slurs

Cussing

Suicide mentions and attempts

Mentions of Abuse

Cronic Illnesses

Bold slanted text= The voices in deku's head (If you know you know)

-Deku's POV-

One last try. I take out my phone and dial 1-800-273-8255.

"Hello, This is the suicide prevention hotline. Please wait to be connected to a crisis counselor. The current wait time is 47 seconds." a automated voice said into a phone.

45 seconds went by...

"Hello, this is a crisis counselor. I have to ask you a series of questions. Tell me If you are unconformable with any. This is a confidential environment. This conversation is private, and you will not be judged me. Any questions?" a man with a monotone voice says. I feel like I've heard it before.

"N-No qu-questions" I reply to him.

"Ok, First few questions. What is your name, your age, and gender identity."

"M-my name I-is Izu-Izuku Mi-Midoriya, Im 16, I-I aa-am ttt-trans ftm"

"Ok, next question. Do you self-harm of any type?"

I quickly hang up the phone. I can't do this. I grab a pen and paper and start writing.

The letter

All,

I am sorry I have caused so many problems. When you read this, I will be dead, hopefully. You may think this is out of the blue, But it's really not. I've been fighting this battle for years, but just now I'm giving up. I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused. Its no one's fault but mine. If you see this tell Saki that I am sorry, but I won't see her for a long time. Tell her I just wasn't made for earth. Please tell her I miss her. Im sorry everyone.

Goodbye, Deku

Back to the story

I tape the note to one of my clean shirts (So Bean can grip it better) and tell bean to go put it on the kitchen counter. She obeys and I shut the door when she comes back. I take 3 bottles of meds and emptied their continence into a bowl. I smashed them up quickly and pored a generous amount of water into the bowl and mixed until it became a paste. I take a syringe and suck the continence of bowl and quickly connected it to my feeding tube. I emptied to continence of the syringe into my tube and flushed my tube.