Perfect Unperfect Love

Chapter 2 e.1

Its dark. My head hurts, i fell asleep on my desk. I notice bit of light seeming through the edge of the thick curtains i have on my windows. Its daylight. I try to search for my phone with a my hand. I accidentally pushed my phone to the floor. My arms are numb from having slept on it the whole night. I grab down to get my phone and checked the time. Its 11:32 am. Wow. I slept through morning. I remember not really doing much so i dont understand why im this tired and slept late. But i guess ive been stressed out. Its been a week since i decided to write. But i havent been start anything. My life's a joke. Ofcourse life wouldn't that easy just because i am excited about it. I have no experience with being in a relationship. Im not that focused into my studies but im not so sociable either. Im not really the approachable type of person because of my somewhat eccentric look, so Im not really popular with the ladies. i mean sure I've read alot of books, watched a lot of movies, dramas and plays, and i could feel the feelings they were trying to portray. But now that im the one who is supposed to do that i actually dont know what to do. That's why i can't write about it. WAIT. I have no experience. That means I can resolve this by gaining some. Im practically an adult now so im free to date anyone. Then I remembered i dont really know much people and my only friends, well im not sure where they are right now. My only choice right now is to install a dating app.
Let's see.
"Are you male, female, or others?"
Obviously male
"What kind of relationship are you looking for?"
Uhh I'd say a casual one.
"How far are you willing to go to meet up for a date?"
Uhhhh. I guess atleast 50 km radius.
"How would you describe your personality?"
Uh. Lets see. Booklover. Movie lover. Writer. Nice. Uhhh. Caring? A bit quiet. Thats it for now
"Lastly, upload your photo"
I forgot about that. Well no use sugarcoating my appearance when the point is to meet them. Maybe i should tie my hair up though. My hair has grown long unto my shoulders. I promised myself I won't cut it til the day i finish writing my first novel. I went to do bathroom to groom myself a bit. I look at the mirror, i took a rubber band and tied my hair to the back. I notices some pimples have grown. Its to be expected with this kind of hairstyle. I try to practice a pose. I cant help but cringe like by alot. I didnt really care much about my appearance but im self conscious whenever i see myself, like mirrors and pictures. I wash up my face. And now, I try to take a selfie. It took me a few dozen shots before i found something "decent" enough to be used as a profile picture. After uploading the my picture, im greeted by alot of questions like what kind of person am i interested in, my horoscope sign and loads more. It took me a few minutes before i could actually start looking for matches. I found a few pretty girls but i dont think they'll reply. I messaged a few girls but none of them replied back. Well its only been a few minutes. Maybe they're asleep or doing something else right now. I should probably let the night pass for now. Suddenly i got a text from Darryl a friend from college. He asked if he could spend a night here at my place. He has some important work nearby and at the same time he wanted to hang out. I could use the company. I've never actually talked to anyone except that one time with the neighbor. I texted him back and asked what time he'll arrive. He texted back saying he's already at the train station nearby. Ughh. That idiot. Its already night and he only texted me now???! He never changes. Always the go with the flow guy. I step outside to pick him up. He said he'll be at the park across the station, so i head on there. When i arrive at the park. I notice 2 girls giggling walk past me. Ahh. I know which direction Darryl is. From a distance i see a him with a girl. Its not even an hour since he arrived and he is already picking up girls. He has always been popular with girls. Well he is even idolized by some boys. He is super kind but he is also quite dense.i guess if you mix him up with me, we kinda balance each other out. That's why we became friends. As he noticed me getting near he waved, the girl looks at my direction and is kinda in aww that they were disturbed.
"Hey, long time no see" says Darryl
"Uh yeah, long time" i reply trying to ignore the girl which i notice having a hard glare at me filled with annoyance.
"So this is Jen, i met her by the entrance of the park earlier"
She smiles at me that kind of smile which is kinda scary like she wants to kill me or something.
"Hi" i manage to say
"Jen, this is Rei, a good friend of mine" Darryl continues
"Oh hi, nice to meet Darryl's friend, now when were you gonna go?" She says to me still having that smile
"Go where?" I asked
"He's actually here to pick me up as i mentioned earlier" Darryl says being unaware of the tension im feeling
"Awee, but im here, you could stay at my place if you want to, ill make sure you have everything you need" she says putting up that little cute act
"Sorry, i kinda needed to talk with him with something" Darryl replies
"I guess that cant be helped then" she says
"Nice to meet you Jen, we'll head off now, see you" Darryl says
She didnt say anything, she just looked sad. But not enough for me to pity her. If I irritated her, she irritates me too, as Darryl and I walks away i looked back at her, still staring at Darryl like a kid who lost her toy. When she notices me looking back, i stick my tongue out, she notices and let out a grump. I give off a little laugh, Rei 1, random girl 0.
"What are you giggling about?" Darryl asks confused
"Oh, nothing" i reply shrugging the whole thing off but with a little smile
"No way. You have a girlfriend?!" He says loudly
"What? No, I dont" i say surprised
"Yeah you're right. Its you after all" he says
"What do you mean by 'its me'?" I say angrily
"Well. You're not the type that goes out of his way to date someone. And i definitely never saw you with a girl. So its hard to imagine"
"I can date a girl. If i wanted" i say unsure of my words
"Yeah sure, if you say so" he says laughing off
When we arrived at my place i asked him if he had already eaten, he said at the train on the way here a group of girls hander him some snacks and kept him company the whole way so he said he was full. Ahh. The perks of being handsome. He said he needed to rest since he has to go out early, we'll catch up later tomorrow he added. So i set up my couch for him tobsleep in and some blankets while he showered. After that he didnt say much more and dozed off. Meanwhile before all this i was doing something so i checked out my phone and, voila, nothing. No matches no messages. I mean even the recent messages i have is of Darryl and some telecom advisories. Other than that its my parents which i havent talked to since i moved here. This is gonna be harder than I thought. I guess there is no use thinking about it for now. So i head on to my bed slept.
I woke up around 8 am. Darryl left for the day, and left me a note.
"I know its none of my business but I noticed you have a "problem" in your hands, so here's a little help at the back"
I flip it back and saw a bunch of numbers. That jerk. I must have been thinking out loud last night. Sheesh. I dont need this. I can do by on my own. I checked my phone and saw a notification. Quite a few actually. This is it. Who knew it just needed a good night sleep. I open the dating app and i read
"You have been blocked by these users"