trigger warning: self harm
i first hurt myself when i was thirteen.
that day was the day you could say my ︎︎heart was officially broken.
that day, i saw fawn and this eric guy kiss, right by the swings.
it all started off when fawn was sitting by the swings, smiling uncontrollably.
i wondered what happened and why bella wasn't there.
suddenly a guy came and sat on the other swing and they smiled at each other.
they talked and then he stood up and kissed her.
i started crying and ran all the way home.
i locked my self in the bathroom and tried to make my wrists bleed by biting them.
i bit and bit and bit until the red fluid started to pour out.
then i realized what i did and cried even more.
not just because of fawn and the eric guy, but because the wounds on my wrist hurt so much.
i decided to stop going to the park.
i shouldn't be torturing myself like that.
but it hurt to not see her face anymore, but it was better than watching her kiss another boy.
