Harry's Hero (z.s.)

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Harry Styles is the perfect pop star. Everyone loves him. Everyone wants him. Everyone's jealous of him. What they don't know is what goes on behind the scenes. Not even the boys know.

The TMH tour just started in Europe. They were in London, at a hotel because they performed twice at the same theatre.

The boys were all hanging out the night before the show in Liam, Louis, and Zayn's room.

Normally, Harry and Zayn shared a room, but the management booked differently this time and stuck Harry with Niall. Harry didn't mind, but he told Zayn everything so, he just had to text him or call him instead.

While they were all hanging out in Liams room Zayn needed a smoke break. The other three boy's didn't know he smoked, but Harry did. So Zayn signaled Harry to come outside with him.

Liam: "woah woah woah where are you two off to?"

Zayn: "my mum texted me to call her, I just didn't wanna walk down there alone. I got nobody to talk to"

Liam: "oh okay, you coming back after?"

Zayn: "yeah we'll be back"

Zayn and Harry left the room

Zayn: "That was close"

Harry: "Z why don't you just tell them you smoke, they're not gonna hate you"

Zayn: "Harry when I first told you, you hated me for a fucking week"

Harry: "I know...I just want you to be okay"

Zayn wrapped his arm around Harry's shoulder

Zayn: "I promise I'll be okay"

Harry: "you're my best friend so seeing you rip your lungs apart with that shit worries me"

Zayn laughed

Zayn: "I know you're worried, but I didn't bring you with me for a lecture"

Zayn poked Harry's dimple and they both laughed.
...
Back in the room, Niall, Louis, and Liam were skeptical

Louis: "this seems a little sketchy to me"

Niall: "what does"

Louis: "Harry and Zayn...they're up each other's asses all the time"

Liam: "they've gotten closer this year...I don't think it's much to worry about. What worries me is that Zayn leaves every half hour and has a new excuse every time"

Niall: "I feel like you're all reading into it too much. He's probably on the phone with his mom just like he said."

Louis: "nah they're probably making out"

Liam: "I think someone's jealous"

Louis: "shut the fuck up, Zayn can take my place as Harry's best friend...I don't really care"

Niall: "they way you're acting says otherwise mate"

Louis scoffed and the other boys laughed.
...
Zayn pressed the cigarette to his lips, inhaled, and pulled it away breathing the stench of nicotine into the air.

Harry: "hey I got a question"

Zayn: "what's up"

Harry: "do you notice Louis frustration toward us?"

Zayn: "all the time mate, it's his jealousy"

Harry: "but like..what's there to be jealous of?"

Zayn: "they fact that we're closer than we were last year, and he's pissed about it."

Harry: "but we're not kids anymore, what does it matter"

Zayn pulled the cigarette away from his lips

Zayn: "you've gotta have a chat with him about that one"

Harry fell silent

Zayn: "hey haz, everything alright?"

Harry: "uh-yeah...I jus, yeah all good"

Zayn shifted his body to face Harry

Zayn: "tell me"

Harry: "I just have a lot on my mind, I think I might just go to bed."

Zayn: "no, come back to the room with me please"

Harry: "zayn i uh, I can't okay"

Zayn: "okay...but if you get a call from me, don't be surprised."

They both got up and started walking to the elevator, they remained quiet until they got to Harry's room.

Harry: "hey uh, tell the lads I'm alright just tired"

Zayn: "I'm calling you on my next smoke break"

Harry: "you don't have to do that, plus I'm gonna be sleeping"

Zayn: "you're scaring me...you're hiding something"

Harry: "I'm not, don't worry"

Harry walked in his room and shut the door behind him.
...
Zayn got back to his room with the other three lads and began to tell them about Harry.

Liam: "where's Harold?"

Zayn: "he said he was exhausted and wanted to go to bed"

Louis: "Are you lying?"

Zayn: "no I swear, I tried to get him to come back but he said he had a lot on his mind and he wouldn't give it up. So I don't know really"

Niall: "well in that case, I'm also gonna head back. See you guys tomorrow"

Liam: "goodnight Nialler"

When Niall left Zayn felt weird. He was so used to sharing a room with Harry at this point, that sharing a bed with Liam or Louis wasn't right in his mind.

Zayn: "hey lads, you guys can have the bed. I'm gonna sleep on the pull out"

Louis: "you sure mate?"

Zayn: "yeah for sure, I quite like these things actually"

Louis: "alright well, good night see you tomorrow"

Just like that, the lights were out and they were all asleep.
...
Back in Harry and Nialls room, Harry was flustered.

Before Niall got there he was in the bathroom with the door locked...sobbing.

When he heard Niall come in, he quickly became quiet.

Niall: "Harry are you in there?"

Harry: "uh yeah, just about to hop in the shower"

Niall: "okay mate, I'm gonna get in bed"

Harry: "okay, I'll try to be quiet"

In the shower, Harry's silent tears continued to shed down his face. The salt water mixing with the shower stream.

Harry was confused, and that scared him. Zayn was his best friend, they've grown close over this year and being with him made Harry's heart happy. Harry began to question if what he felt was more than that. He was so afraid of telling Zayn how he really felt that he bottled it all up, kept it in, and drowned himself in his own tears.

He wanted to tell Zayn, but he had so much fear that their friendship would come crashing down with it. Often it resulted in suicidal behaviors for two reasons.

1. Harry was pressured into being the perfect superstar that all girls fell in love with. But he feared he'd never be perfect enough.

2. He was in love with his best friend, and he didn't know what to do.