I know *S.M*

5

I put on a blush pink dress and some white strappy heels. I curl my hair, do my make-up and I put in my contacts. I grab my sheer white shawl and my white clutch shoving my necessities inside. I walk out to the car and I get in a few seconds later my dad gets in beside me and tells the driver that he's ready to go. We drive into the area where all the expensive shops and restaurants are and the driver pulls over to let us out. We walk into some fancy restaurant and over to a table where Caleb and his father are sitting.

"Shawn, Rosie it's nice to see you again, Sorry for the lack of my wife she had other commitments to attended to," Mr. Pritchard says.

I look at Caleb and he gives me a little smile so I smile back. We sit down and my dad and Mr. Pritchard talk about boring stuff and I just sit there board out of my mind twiddling with my jewellery.

"So Rosie do you know where you are going to be attending university yet Caleb here is going to be going to Yale," Mr. Prichard says.

"Impressive," I say trying not to laugh looking at Caleb who has a look of no way in hell am I going to Yale, "I actually haven't decided yet."

"Yes so many great university's, who could choose," Mr. Pritchard says.

"Why don't you two kids go and do something while we talk boring old business," my dad says and I give him a glare now realising this is a set up wanting me to marry someone rich since I don't know what I want to do with my life.

"Sure," I say taking my napkin off my lap and putting it on the table with a fake smile.

Caleb and I head out to the back of the restaurant that has a little balcony looking out at the view.

"So how long did it take you to realise they were trying to set us up?" I ask Caleb when we get outside.

"Pretty much the second I pulled up outside the restaurant," Caleb says, "how about you."

"Only a few seconds ago because my dad only found out a few hours ago that my boyfriend and I had broken up before we even came down to LA," I say.

"Well at least you don't have a girlfriend of 3 years that they don't like because she doesn't come from money and she surfs, my parents swear she's the reason I surf even though I surfed long before I met her, also they try to set me up with someone at least once a month knowing I'm already taken," Caleb says leaning on the balcony.

"At least they care, my dad missed having lunch with me for a meeting yesterday and then freaked out this morning because I got bombarded my paparazzi and my ex showed up out of no where begging to take him back and it got on the cover of a newspaper and I looked like a total mess," I say leaning on the balcony beside him.

"Why do parents have to be so," Caleb says pausing to try think of a word.

"Overbearing, controlling, people," I say.

"Exactly," Caleb says.

"Do you ever wish that you just had a normal family," I say.

"Yeah I do but then again what is normal," Caleb says.

"Yeah I guess your right, life is just so complicated sometimes I just want to press pause so I have time to catch my breath but sometimes I'm scared if I do life will just pass me by," I say.

"I think it's a good thing to pause other wise you miss the best parts of life, sometimes you do need to slow down savour a moment otherwise you will burn out faster," Caleb says.

"You know you are pretty smart for a surfer dude," I smile.

"Yeah why do you think my dad is shipping me off to Yale at the first chance he gets," Caleb says.

"So that's not what you want to do?" I say sitting on top of one of the tables.

"I want to travel the world make a difference really help people, and surf all the waves I can, we only have one life why waste it on something you hate," Caleb says leaning against a table opposite me.

"I wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life, I feel like everyone has it all figured out and then there's me just lost scared I will never find the thing I love," I say.

"You will find it, don't worry," Caleb says.

"You ready to go Rosie," my dad says walking out.

"Yep, It was nice seeing you again Caleb, Mr. Pritchard," I say following my dad out of the restaurant.

"So what do you think about Caleb?" my dad asks.

"I can't believe you tried to set me up with someone when you didn't even know Aiden and I broke up, I don't want to be set up also did Mr. Pritchard tell you he has a girlfriend of 3 years," I say.

"I just don't want you to ever have to worry," my dad says.

"I've worried my whole life and even if I had a rich husband that doesn't mean I wouldn't worry, you loved mum and you always told me to find that, that one person with that connection, not that feeling like you could never live without them, no, that feeling that they are going to be their for you no matter what you do because you know deep down that there's no one else who even compares, what happened to the guy that believed in true love, that love you and mum had that love that you hate how much you love them," I yell.

"That love turns into pain so easily and I don't ever want to see you in pain," My dad says, "No parent ever wants to see their child in pain."

"You have to let me live my own life, you wont be able to shield me from pain forever because pain is inevitable but pain, that's what makes us stronger," I say.

"It only makes you stronger if you live through it," my dad says.

"Well how will I know if you never let me have the chance," I say.

"I already lost your mum I can't lose you too," my dad says.

"If you keep at this the way you are you will," I say as we pull up to the house and I get out of the car.

I head straight to my room and get into more comfortable clothing, once I take out my contacts I feel much more relaxed. I put on some music and I lay on my bed staring at the roof just trying to take a pause. Soon my body is so relaxed that sleep takes over.