Metanoia

8

*Derek*

It's halfway through the third month when Stiles gathers everyone in the living room. He has Ethan on his hip while the rest of us lounge around. Yes he did adopt the twins, also Isaac and Liam because he could. 

"I have word from Deaton." He announces. 

"And?" -Jackson

"He will be back in Beacon Hills tomorrow and we can do the spell reversal tomorrow night." There were cheers going on around the room. 

"However, you are allowed to choose to not turn back, if you do not wish to." Stiles said. Aiden mumbled a good and Ethan nodded along. We were dismissed. I don't know if I want to change back. I got use to being this way. I enjoy Stiles and mine's dynamic this way. I freaking love submitting to him. But on the other hand, I'm the Alpha. I'm supposed to be in charge. Intimidating, but being in my 16 year old body I don't think I look intimidating as I do in my 24 year old body. I just don't know. 

The next day.....

*Stiles*

Deaton arrives in the afternoon with the parents/adults. He set up in the living room. Everyone but Derek is sitting around waiting. Ethan and Aiden don't want to change back. They feel slightly bad about it, but decided they are happier this way and that is totally okay here. We can all take care of them. 

"Where's Derek?" -Chris

"In our room, I'll go talk to him. Deaton, you can go ahead and start turning the rest back. We've got their clothes on the table." I said getting up, putting Ethan on my Dad's lap before heading up stairs. 

"Der?" I said slowly pushing the door open to find him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands. I stepped in the room, shutting the door and walking towards him. 

"Derek?" I asked. 

"I don't know what to do." 
"What do you mean?" 

"I don't know if I want to stay this way in my 16 year old body that I am loving by the way. But would it not make me a good Alpha, if I stay this way? Would I be being selfish. I don't know. I...." 

"Der, Breathe." He took a big breath. 

"I want to try something, but I need you to trust me." I said. 

"I will always trust you." Der said causing me to smile. 

"Okay, close your eyes." He did as I went and lit a few candles around the room and picked up one of the few pictures of his family he has out. Picking it up, I put it in Derek's hands making sure he keeps his eyes shut. I crawled behind him, wrapping my arms around his waist and laid us down. 

"Breathe." I whispered and he complied. I shut my eyes as well. 

*Derek*

Once Stiles was touching me I felt like I was thrown across the room. Looking around I was in a dark room. "Sti?"

"I'm right here." he said wrapping his arm around my waist. 

"Where are we?" 
"Remember how I am a Soul Spark?" 
"Yeah."

"We are at the place between the real world and the Spirit world." 
"Why?"

"Just wait, they are almost here." 

"Stiles? You need to tell me what is going on." 

"More like you need to learn to trust him more Derek." I froze looking to the woman who spoke. 

"Mom?" Stiles let me go and I walked towards her. She met me halfway engulfing me in a hug. 

"Stiles has mentioned the spell that the witch cast and you're hesitance to switch back."

"Uh, yeah. I kind of like being in my 16 year old body again. I don't know, it's like a weight is lifted off my shoulders. But on the other hand, I am the Alpha and I feel like if I don't change I am being selfish and other packs won't take us seriously. I don't want to be the reason again that my pack gets destroyed." I was hit upside the head, TWICE. 

"Idiot." Stiles huffed. 

"Derek, you are allowed to do something that makes you happy. God knows you deserve it. And you will not be underestimated. You have werewolves, hunters, coyotes, kitsunes, sparks, banshees and so much more in your pack. And look at me son, it wasn't your fault. Kate took advantage of you and played you okay. None of us blame you. You need to get rid of that guilt." Mom said. I nodded hugging her tight, I kept my face in her neck as she spoke to Stiles. 

"Stiles, I trust you to help him. I'm glad you're his mate. You bring something out of him I hadn't seen since Paige. So I thank you for that." 

"You're welcome Talia."

"And Derek." I let go of my mother to look to the voice who spoke. She was beautiful. A female version of Stiles with long hair and a sweet face. I looked to Stiles. 

"Hey mom." he whispered with a smile on his face. She smiled to her son before turning to me. 

"Derek Hale. You take care of my son for me. Make sure he doesn't push himself aside to just help everyone else. He's been doing that forever, even if it hurts him to do." 

"Yes Ma'am." I said. 

"Good." She hummed. 

"Ethan and Aiden are calling." Stiles said. I nodded and we hugged out mothers before finding ourselves in my room and candles blown out. I turned around kissing Stiles on the lips. 

"Thank you." 

"You're welcome Der." 

"Dad, Daddy." Ethan whispered/called through the door. 

"One sec." Stiles said and I heard two sets of little feet patter away. Before I got up Stiles whispered in my ear, "Deaton found a spell that allows me to have a knot." scrapping his teeth on the shell of my ear. A whimper escaped my mouth and heat traveled up my neck before I got up pulling a laughing Stiles up with me. We walked to the living room to see teenage pack members again, minus Ethan and Aiden. 

"So Derek, what's your decision?" -Deaton

"I think I am going to stay the way I am." I said. 

"Really?!" The pack said. I nodded and Peter genuinely smiled. 

"Good, you seem happier this way." Peter hummed. 

I nodded, "I am."

"Stiles, did you do that spirit thing?" the Sheriff asked. 

"Yeah." He said. Deaton patted Stiles' shoulder before taking him  outside. I remembered what it was for and I blushed. Ugh. The girls coo'd before Scott asked, "Why did Stiles leave with Deaton?" 

"He's asking Deaton a favor." I muttered walking away before Aiden had my leg giggling.