i have dared to dream
away
my dear and eldest friend
a friend called Doubt.
i have frowned and
summoned
a denial
in which
my dear old friend
does not exist.
Doubt and i have quarrelled over folly
left each other
i have tried to leave Doubt
far behind me
in the shadows
but
Doubt with his black beady eyes
takes me by the hand
and
drags me home again.
long ago when i was but a child
i was afraid of Doubt
for Doubt knew my insecurities
and played at them
still Doubt remains a shadow
on every place i leave behind.
and then again
when i was but a child
a new friend came to me
a friend called Fear.
at first i wept
for Fear with his long black cloak
restrained me and dared not let me go.
while once i was afraid
my darling Fear
now
doth keep me company
when all else have abandoned me.
i have walked through lands
far and wide
and tiptoed
toandfro
with my companion Fear
in my times of desperation
i have tried to run away from Fear
but
he is never more than one step behind
and
still Fear remains my most loyal friend.
let me not forgot my
charming Melancholy
who likes to poke his head round
now and then.
from time
to
time
and time again i have walked hand-in-hand with
charming Melancholy
whose company i keep
and i weep
for such a sweet caress has Melancholy
that i cannot help
but crave it.
so dear to me are my friends
Melancholy, Doubt and Fear
i have a friend named Hope
but she is never here.
