Hold My Hand | seventeen oneshots

0214 ; Seoksoo

!!!! Warning: Mentions of self-harm and suicide, if uncomfortable, I suggest you leave. This story is fiction !!!!
02-14-2020
[Seokmin]
'You like Wonwoo don't you ?!' Joshua said in a pissed tone. Wonwoo and I are close, very close since we're best friends.

'W-what ? Joshua, you really think I like Wonwoo ?! He's my best friend Joshua... You know me right? I'm not the boy who would show affection, because there is no us !! Why would you get jealous ? I get that you love me but, Joshua we don't have a label and you know my parents ! Don't you trust me ?' Seokmin's tears were threating to fall, but he held them back.

Both parties have dealt with trust issues.
'You know what Seokmin ? I don't like you anymore ! I'm so sick of you !' Joshua turned away from Seokmin and left him in tears. Joshua left without looking back.

Seokmin fell on the ground, finally releasing his tears he bottled up. 'JOSHUA !!!' Seokmin screamed his lungs out. He knew he bothered his neighbors but he didn't care. He was hurt. 

02-26-2020
[Author]
Seokmin still hasn't moved on. He sees Joshua having fun and all, like nothing happened.

[Wonwoo]
Seokmin looks depressed. He hasn't slept in days. I'm debating whether on telling him what Joshua has been telling us behind his back, Joshua told us not to tell him. He needs to know that Joshua's been bullying him behind his back.

What Joshua's doing isn't good. He's already hurt, I don't want to hurt him more.

[Seokmin]
Lmao if I died right now, Joshua's face would have a bigger smile. Am I right or am I right?

I'm sorry, I love you Joshua. Joshua, I just really want to tell you I LOVE YOU !!! But you probably think I'm being annoying.

(3/29/2020)
[Seokmin]
It's been a month and I haven't moved on. I'm depressed already. Insomnia's kicking in. I sat on the edge of our apartment building. My feet were dangling along the edge. I looked up to the sky, I remembered memories of Joshua and I. It hurt me even more knowing that he was bullying me behind my back. Wonwoo told me yesterday. I can't believe the boys didn't say that to me because Joshua told them not to.

I could hear the doors open from behind. I could hear Joshua's voice screaming the words "I'm sorry" but those words went ear to ear.

I realized that Wonwoo already told him about me being depressed and the lines on my wrists.

I stood up and looked at him then said "I'm sorry too, but I can't stay awake at night crying to myself. Damn, I can't even fall asleep because of you..." I paused, looking down on the floor. "You caused me so much pain, don't you realize that? That-" I was cut off by Joshua saying "I realized it too late... I'm really sorry, please if you give me-" "I'm afraid I can't give you another chance. It's been me who kept on forgiving. Joshua, I can't take it anymore." I smiled at him and let myself fall.

"SEOKMIN!! NO!" I could hear Joshua shout but he was too late.