Feeling bad wasn't really my thing i use to always have a smile on my face. I was that person you could come to talk with so i can cheer you up. suddenly i became the one who needs to be talked with . but i guess the more you bury the sadness in the dark , the more it kills you inside.
how did i turned from a girl who say "it's all good life is beautiful" or " today is a good day and tomorrow will be more" to "i guess life is complicated what can we do "and "today was painfully long i hope tomorrow doesn't exist"
did you think you're the reason why ? Well i guess you were . I thank god every night for what i have became even though it's hard for me to keep on a smile that long . not gonna lie but you weren't the only reason why i became like this it was you and those friends that use to say "don't be like this he loves you" or "we'll always be by your side" . Funny they said they're my friends then other second they're like I'm sorry I'm going to leave but I'll be watching over you. watching over me? are y'all angels or what? life doesn't work that way either you stay or leave . i really am feeling sorry for the old me that thought that everyone is nice and no one will hurt her , life is beautiful and colourful . well now life isn't as much prettier isn't it old me ? if i could go back and tell you do not trust them ,don't give them a place in your heart they don't deserve you i would do it. but guess i always knew that I'll be by myself in this dark path that has no end . i guess i changed.
