⚠️TW: PANIC ATTACK.
that feeling when it's 1am.
you're looking blankly at your ceiling in the dark .
and your brain can't seem to take a rest.
all you want is to sleep but you can't.
because your mind is playing tricks on you .
your eyes burn you wanna close them so bad but you can't
you started breathing hardly
your heart is pounding that you can clearly hear it with your ears
you can't feel your body anymore
you can't move, your vision is foggy .
you feel like you're gonna pass out anytime soon.
you can't cry as loud as you want otherwise you're parents will wake up
you snap out of it once you saw a picture on your bed
"you" but years before when everything used to break you down but u hide it very well
when every little thing people say about you always end up hurting you
but you passed it
you're okay now, you don't care about what they say .
cuz you love yourself, and that's what matters.
you start telling yourself "i can handle it, I'm strong and i know it."
"the younger you" would never think you'll be this way .
it is proud of you for taking care of yourself and being what you've always wanted to be.
and you're proud of it for staying strong no matter how people's opinions and harsh words use to hurt it .
"all i wanna say is younger me thank you for holding on, and letting me become what I'm proud of the most"
