Hold You Tighter | TaeGyu

Nothing More

Beomgyu reached his house in the late evening. He still felt guilty for not having a conversation with his boyfriend earlier.

"Beomgyu! What're you doing outside the whole day, son?", his mother inquired making his thoughts stop. "Your friend is visiting you after such a long time and you're not giving her time"

"Relax, omo-nim. I met him earlier at the café. I had a brief introduction with his friends too. Yeonjun oppa introduced us", Shin-ae chimed in before Beomgyu answered.

"Really? That's great! Did you meet that guy Taehyun? Really a smart guy. I really wonder how such a wonderful boy is friends with my dumb kid", Beomgyu's mother flicked his forehead.

"That's amazing. He'll get smarter with him", Shin-ae laughed, making the male's tongue stick out at her.

"I'll introduce you to them next time more precisely. By the way, dude, don't you have exams?", Beomgyu asked as he saw Shin-ae just taking up all the snacks and comfortably watching TV.

"Had you missed me a little more then you would have known that my exams are already over and I'm here on a vacation", Shin-ae just stuffed her food while keeping her eyes on the screen.

"Yeah, sure! Mine are knocking on the door and I feel like running away", Beomgyu said before skipping to his room.

He quickly locked the door properly and went to his attached balcony. He took out his phone and didn't even waste a second to ring upon a certain number.

"Hello?", the voice answered after two rings. Beomgyu felt like it sounded somewhat enervated.

"Hyunie, you aren't upset, right?", he still asked, keeping his voice low.

"No, Hyung. It's okay". But Beomgyu can always sense when something is wrong with the younger's mood. He takes it as the younger will tell him if it's something he needed to know.

"Listen, as I said, I had a crush on her. But I don't have feelings for her now, okay? She's a part of my past. She's just a friend, nothing more. You're my present", Beomgyu spoke slowly and his last words made Taehyun a little shy.

"Yeah, it's okay. You don't have to think too-"

"Hey, dude! Come, have dinner", Shin-ae knocked on the door, making both Beomgyu and Taehyun gasp.

"I've to go now. Bye. Take care", Beomgyu quickly said while walking towards the door.

"I lov-", Taehyun couldn't finish his sentence as the call already disconnected. He didn't say that he loves me like he always does? It's okay, it's just this once.

He looked on the screen and sighed. Yeah, she's just a friend.

"And soon he's gonna leave you for her"

"Because you don't deserve love"

Taehyun grabbed his head with his two hands. How did they become louder?

He had nothing to do but just wait till they stop, laying down on the bed with teary eyes staring at the ceiling and clenching his jaw, enduring the pain.

***

It's 2 am and Beomgyu just woke up. He had this habit since he was little, waking up in the middle of the night. He always strolled around the house or drank some water or just scrolled through his SNS and then again fell asleep.

He walked out of his room while rubbing his eyes but a sound caught his attention. It's the terrace of his house. So he tiptoed to the terrace and the sound became clearer. Who's sobbing at this hour!?

He pushes the slider slightly and the sight shocks him. It's Shin-ae, his best friend. She's sitting on the floor, head hanging low, knees pulled against her chest. She's....crying?

"Yaa", Beomgyu ran towards her and put his hands on her shoulders. "Why are you crying, buddy? What happened?"

She looked up with her teary eyes and then hugged Beomgyu as more tears followed.

"Calm down, Shin-ae", Beomgyu consoles while patting her head. "If you want to talk about it, I'm here. So don't hesitate"

Shin-ae relaxes and takes a deep breath. "It's about him", she confesses. "It's about Heejung oppa"

"Okay. I'm listening", Beomgyu pulls away but still comforts his friend.

Shin-ae had a long time crush on this guy, a senior, Na Heejung. Apparently, Beomgyu's crush on Shin-ae faded away when he realized that Heejung sunbaenim is the one she likes and although he was known as the one-who-has-everything, this guy was the ultimate campus crush. Now, the thing is Shin-ae is really open about her feelings. So, of course, she openly pinned after this sunbae, let him know about her feelings. But after years of pinning, she recently found out he's dating someone from his university. Well, that was bound to happen because he would always deny her proposal saying she's immature to realize that it's just an infatuation. But Shin-ae never thought that she would feel this bad about the matter and ran away to free her mind.

"And when I asked him what is it that she has but I don't, he only answered that I'm a kid for him, he's always seen me as a little sister", Shin-ae rants.

"Okay okay. You need to calm down and stop crying", Beomgyu rubs her hair.

"Tell me, Beommie. Ain't I pretty? Is my hair ugly? Is it about my body? I even went on a diet for him. Is my dressing sense not good enough? Or is it about my personality? Why didn't he look at me for just once?", Shin-ae sobs more.

"Look at me", Beomgyu finally catches her attention by cupping her cheeks to look into him and gulp.

"Do not judge yourself for others. If someone doesn't like you for who you are then the feelings aren't real. If he doesn't like you then let it be. He isn't the only guy for you. You'll eventually find the right one", Beomgyu's words made her silent.

"And one more thing. You are pretty. No one is ugly. It's just how we see them. You have one of the best personalities I've ever seen. You're friendly and you make people laugh. Anyone would miss out if they don't date you. So, chill", Beomgyu appreciates, making her look away from embarrassment.

Finally, Beomgyu gets up to leave and says to relax her mind before heading to bed.

"Hey...the thing is I didn't tell my mother about him but she knew I was kinda off about something and we had a terrible argument so I ran away. I might flunk in most of the subjects and she's gonna give me a good hearing that I don't wanna hear", she admits as she fidgets her fingers while staring at her own feet.

"Silly" Beomgyu chuckles after listening to her words, making her look at him with a confused expression. "You really thought I didn't miss you huh? I know everything. It's okay. You can stay here as long as you wish. But head back before the end of your vacation. I'm guessing you'll have to take the re-test. You really can't give up on studies because of a crush, for God's sake", he says. looking over his shoulder.

"Thanks, Beommie", Shin-ae smiles weakly.

"I'm your friend. I'll be there every time you need me. We can hang out together while you're here to lighten up your mood. You can always rely on me", Beomgyu ensures before walking out of the sight.

Shin-ae sits there for a while. And then she chuckles.

"Yeonjun oppa was right", she mumbles.

"I regret not acknowledging his feelings earlier"

She finally got up and went back to her room, wishing for a good sleep but it may not come tonight.

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[A/N]: Prepare yourselves because Taehyun is going to have a little hard time