*HIATUS* Obsessive Compulsive Disorder {a.i + l.h}

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Symmetry.
Contamination.
Security.
Perfectionist.

Completely normal words to anyone else.
But not to Ashton Fletcher Irwin.

"No it's not symmetrical"
"I need to disinfect it first"
"Let me go check it one more time"
"But it has to be perfect!"

These sentences had become a daily thing for the young Australian.
He didn't mean to be the way he is, but his brain just wouldn't allow him to think of anything else. If he didn't check that his front door was locked, or if his desk was not neat, or if someone was doing something wrong he just couldn't stand it.
He would start fidgeting, panicking and going into a mental breakdown just if a pen was out of place on a desk.
Some say it's not a bad thing because he liked to stay neat and tidy. But they don't under stand. They don't understand the stress, of needing everything to be perfect and equal, needing everything to be done correctly, needing everything to be double checked, needing to make sure that you don't get contaminated with everyone's germs and sicknesses. It's stressful as fuck.
Then there's always that one asshole who always feels the need to purposely sneeze or cough on you, even when they know it can lead to you having a mental breakdown in the middle of the hall.

Sometimes he likes his disorder, but only when it affects him in a good way. Like how he never gets sick because he's so careful of his surroundings. But more often than not, he hates it.
He absolutely fucking hates it.
Because all he can ever do. Is worry.
Worry about everything. If his shirt is wrinkled, if he's missing one pen from a set of 10, if someone who might have Ebola has recently touched this table? (A/n: I'm sorry. (No I'm not))

It's a stressful life for the young 20 year old but he only knows one thing for sure.

That one day, this disorder is gonna kill him.

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HaIiiiIiiI I'm sorry this is shorter than my dick atm, but I hope that it's okay, it's a kind of intro to the story not really a first chapter but oh well. Anyway, hope you like it and ill try to update as much as possible but I have to warn you I'm a slow updater 🙊. Sawreh. But if you want you can go read my other stories in he "mental disorder" series, I have insomnia, panic disorder and social anxiety, so it would be good if you could check those out tooooo. Okay I'm gonna stop rambling now and go.
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- Raphael 🙊✌️