Actually, Can You Survive 4 Years In Hell?

Chapter 10, Purple

We decided to take one car because, gas and were forceing Gavin to pay, because were going to his house. My logic is there, yall are just too small brain to see it.

Jay is driving, Gav is passenger, and me and Hos in the back. Gav somehow connected his phone too bluetooth without Jay noticing.

"What is this shit?" Jay says as Set It Off plays, "a song?" Gavin answer with, Jay hits him in the back of the head. "Eyes on the road, sir! I think.... are your eyes open or closed." Jay smirks.

"Why did we let him drive?" Housh ask, I laugh.

"Hes the oldest."

"His eyes are closed."

"Its his car."

"His eyes are closed."

"He's the best at driving."

"His eyes are closed!"

Jay says to us, "Oi, guys I dont care you are in a relationship but keep the couple fighting in the bedroom."

I go red, "we arent dating!"

"Sure, now dont mess up my car." Jay says, gavin looks confused, "how would they mess up your car?"

Jay smirks and Gavin gets the message, "oh... Oh! Gross dude!"

"The more you say 'dont fuck in my car' the more I want to." I joke, Hosuh mumbles something I didnt hear. Jay laughs, "horny I see, can you at wait until we are at Gavin's house."

"No promises. I'm just so horny I have trouble keeping it in my pants."

Hosuh laughs, "keeping what? We all know nothing is down there." Jay and Gavin laugh, I fake pout and look out the window. "Sorry, did I hit a nerve?"

I look back at Hosuh, "no, I just didnt have a comeback." He nods and the car turns to a 'comfortable' silence.

Jay pulls into Gavin drive way, "home at last." Gav says getting out Jay's car, we head to the front door and Gavin unlocks it, "Hello?" He calls into the house, no one answer. "Home alone, I guess."

We walk inside and proceed to take off our shoes, "to Gavin's room." Jay say already walking upstairs. "I never agreed on that." Gav follows, i start going up the stairs and notice Hosuh was looking at his phone.

"Something wrong?" I ask, he looks up, "yeah, of course..."

Should I push it, "are you sure?"

He shakes his head, "no, I'm not really, my mom is asking where I am. She thinks I'm getting drunk."

"Its not even lunch yet..."

"Yeah, well she doesnt trust me." He starts up the stairs, I garb his sleeve, he looks down at me "Stephen, are you ok?" I dont know what to do, should I comfort him, tell him everything will be already. Or just let it be. "Stephen?"

I let go of him, "sorry, I felt dizzy. I'm fine." He looks concerned, "I swear I'm fine now." He nods and continues up the stairs, damnit, I wish I could help him, but telling someone, 'everything will be ok' doesn't always work.

We stop in front of Gavin's closed door, I kick it, "i swear if yall are making out-"

"Were not!" They both yell, i open the door and they're both sitting on Gav's bed already on his switch. "I'm playing animal crossing, this is more important than fucking. I need to move out this fucking villager." Gavin yells.

Jay watches Gavin and laughs, "dude why are all your villagers so ugly?"

"I dont know, I need this fucking lion, Bud to move out!" Gavin looks like he is about to cry, "I just want fruit cat!"

Jay puts a hand on Gavin's shoulder, "stay strong."

I roll my eyes, me and Hos sit down on a beanbag, I watch the TV of Gav hitting a lion with a net. Hos draws on his phone. I lean back to look at hosuh phone, not realizing my head was on his shoulder. "Whatcha doing."

"Drawing."

"Drawing what?"

"A person."

"Who?"

He sighs, "why are you asking so many questions?"

His voice is actually a lot nicer to listen to than- damnit Stephen you have a girlfriend. "I asked 3 questions."

He laughs, his laugh is cute- damnit, "may I ask you a question?"

I hum a yes, he continues, "why is your head on my shoulder?"

"Comfy."

"Did you just say comfy?" He giggles, "that's actually adorable." No you- Fuck!!

What the fuck is wrong with me, I met this kid less then 3 days ago. I'm going insane, yep that the answer, I'm going insane. I only had girlfriends but also I dont really care who i date because it's the person that matters, but this is different! I always like more feminine people, is it because he kinda is kinda feminine or maybe he just reminds me of Harley. I'm over-fucking-thinking, it's just he is so kind but also a bit of an ass.

This is going to fast- this isn't a book.

I look at Hosuh's phone, it's someone looking out a car window, the person he is drawing looks familiar, "are you drawing me?"

"You were a good inspiration when we were in the car." He opens his camera and shows the picture he was drawing it was me looking out the window when we were in Jay's car.

I sit up and look at him, "You took a picture of me, without permission?"

"Its a good picture, thought you wouldnt mind. I just thought you looked hot- I mean, shit!" he blushes hard,  "I mean decent, you're decent." He covers his face with his hands.

I laugh, he thinks I'm hot, holy shit he thinks I'm hot! Why am I so happy about this? I move his hands away from his face, "thanks, mind sending me the picture when you're done?"

He looks shocked, "really, you want something I drew?"

"Well, I did ask."

Hosuh thinks just stares, then smiles and looks away, "sure..." he said it quietly, I lean back again and rest my head on his shoulder.

Why do I feel happier with him?