You can remember the way someone smells, the way they move, the way they act, but you will always forget the sound of their voice, in this case I didn't.....
It's been three months, I see him everyday but I haven't heard his voice, but I still know how it sounds like, I would hate to hear it again but it would make me feel better. Sometimes I wonder if he still feels something for me deep inside in that cold heart that once have me warmth, I miss the days he used to hold me in his arms when he had his arm over me, at that time it used to annoy me now I miss it I miss everything about him. If only I can go back and change things, my mistakes I made won't leave me alone, sometimes I even hate myself for those same mistakes, I feel so hurt likes there's something missing inside like a hole In my soul going deeper and deeper, I try to hate him but I can't I say things like "he's an asshole" but deep inside I know I don't mean it, I'm confused and angry I no longer know what to feel, anger, sadness, and love all colliding inside me. I feel like I can just collapse at any minute what node I thought would make me feel happy now is killing me slowly in a painful way and I'm dyeing in the inside like a fire slowly spreading and each time I see him that fire spreads killing any hope in love again
