Luke X Reader

At the Carnival

TW Cutting and Eating Disordered thoughts and actions.

We arrived at the carnival and all I could see was food and games. The food looks gross but I do wanna eat something today for Luke. Luke lead me to a game where there was a huge penguin. He payed for the game and he then took hold of the three balls he was given. He threw the first ball knock only one can out of the five down then he threw the second ball and knocked the last four down winning us the huge penguin. We then went and got some food I got a salad while he got a burger. I cringed when I saw it but he didn't notice. We sat and ate then went to the Ferris wheel. While in line we ran into Kellin Quinn so that was fun. We eventually got on the Ferris wheel and when we got to the top I clung to him, my fear of heights taking over. He then proceeded to kiss me and I instantly calmed down. Soon it ended and we went home. He drove us home while keeping his hand on my thigh but soon I just took his hand in mine being insecure about my scarred legs. He rubbed my hand gently then pulled up to my apartment and we packed my things so that I could move in with him. Once we were done I did one last check and grabbed my blades shoving them in my pocket before we left. I then texted my friends parents and the landlord about it. We then drove back to his place. We get out of the car and take all my stuff back into his apartment and get it all put away. I then go into the bathroom remembering my blades in my pocket. I strip of the clothes Lukey let me borrow. I looked at my body in disgust seeing fat so I stepped on the scale. In my head I see 210 when the scale actually shows 105 I get off and I slash at my legs because of how disgusting I am I scream in frustration and Luke walks in. He grabs a towel to the cuts I made. He then sees the number flashing on the scale as 105. He looks at me and starts to cry. "Baby we'll get through this!" He told me as he hugged me. I just clung to him. He gave me the shirt he was wearing and gave me sweat pants to wear. He picked me up and that's when how light I was really clicked with him and he kissed my head. He sat on the bed carefully then layer down while holding me and I just laid on him. He's like 6'2" while I'm 5'"8 so he has a good six inches on me so he rests his chin on my head. Then we fall asleep and I have that same reoccurring nightmare again about my parents death.