As a child who never got love, I didn't know how to express it, so it came out in all the wrong ways.
I learned a very valuable hard lesson one day when I had a friend over. I wanted to play dolls, she wanted to play tag. I got so mad, I thought just because she didn't want to play with me that she didn't love me. Because I had never been taught. We were at my friends house because my mom didn't want another annoying grubby child messing up her floors.
My friend and I had went seperate ways I was playing dolls by myself I'm her living room. Her dad came by and said whatcha doing and when I told him, he looked confused. That's when he laughed and said sometimes to really show someone you love them is to do something they want to do.
I wound up playing tag with her and having a blast.
I learned that your friends aren't your dolls, and that treating people like that was exactly how Angie was. And I didn't want to be anything like that monster.
As a child I really struggled to be my own person, because a kid needs guidance and it was very hard when your guidance was sick like Angie. I think I eventually got it though.
