< Seohyun >
To be honest, I haven't had enough sleep last night, thinking about Han.
I was asking myself if it was worth it to forgive him, if he really was sorry; only one way to find out! Wait for them to visit.
Just a few days left, I can already feel my heart racing. I was nervous and, shockingly excited.
This is it! What should I do? What should I say to him? What if he doesn't like me anymore? What if I freeze and run away?
"Ju?" it's Sehun
"Hey"
"Are you okay?"
I don't know, I keep asking that to myself as well
"I'm fine Sehun"
"You called me Sehun, not Sese, that means something's bothering you"
Damn it.
"Ugh fine you got me"
"I know you too well" he said as he smiled and sat on my bed
"Uhmmmmm" I can't seem to tell him
"Oh okay. It's Han"
"Okay fine I'll tell you, just lemme do the talking"
"Yes it's Han, I just don't know what to do or say when we see each other" I said, I can't even look af him
"Well, you just have to let it happen" he said
"What if I--"
"No more what ifs! Everything will be alright. You just have to wait and let it all flow. You'll know what to do when it happen"
"Ofcourse"
"Whether you tell me or not, I know you're looking forward into meeting him again. All your questions will be answered"
"That's if he'll answer"
"Course he will"
"Thank you Sese"
"Now that's more like it"
"Let's go! Mom made snacks" he added
"You go ahead, I'll be there in a minute"
He smiled and got out of my bedroom
I think he's right. I just need to relax and let it all happen.
I don't have to stress myself. All I ever wanted are answers to all my questions, that's it! Nothing more.
I don't really care that much whether he still likes me, as a friend or even more than that. What's important to me is that I'll get to talk to him so that I can understand everything that has happend.
Just a few more days.
< Luhan >
"Aren't you gonna eat?" Xiumin keeps asking me
I heard him, I just can't talk. I don't know why, maybe because I suddenly don't know how to?
"You gotta talk to me" he said
"I know you heard me" he added
"Okay. Fine"
"You need to stop overthinking" he said to me
"I know. I've been waiting for this, to finally meet her face to face, as Han. I don't know why I'm still getting paranoid"
"You're thinking that she won't forgive you? That she will run away? That it will never be like, what, 5 years ago?"
"I messed up! I should've told her the moment I've met her, it's just .... I owe her an apology and I don't know how to say it"
"You don't know how to say sorry?"
"It's much more complicated than just saying sorry"
My mind is all over the place!
"You gotta breathe, okay? Just ... let it flow, let it all happen ... you say what you want to say, and accept what Seohyun's response would be"
"What if I can't take it?"
"Who's at fault again?"
"Not helping"
"You need to relax, you'll see each other tomorrow at class, don't let all of this be an obvious reason for her to think that you're her old friend. Just let it all flowwwwwww"
"You're right. I'll just wait and everything will fall right back into place. I just hope she understands" I said, burying my face into my hands
"It will all be fine"
I sure hope so ....
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Eyyo~ how's your quarantine days been? Pretty boring? Hahaha same here.
Been thinking on how should I continue this story so it took a little longer ><
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