Your Love Is My Light

Ch. 17

Enjoy, Vote, Stay Home & Stay Safe! I had an inspirational moment tonight, and got more writing done, so I decided to post this.

Y/n's POV:

"I kissed Mikey" She says.

"...."

I stare at my girlfriend with a face mixed with confusion and anger. I wasn't expecting her to say anything like that. I thought maybe it was because she was going to have to stay longer than she thought in New York or something. NOT THAT SHE CHEATED ON ME?!

"What do you mean you kissed Mikey?!" I shout.

"It's not what you think!" She pleads.

"It's not what I think?! You leave for one day and you cheat on me!!"

"It wasn't like that Y/n! I swear!" She cries, taking a step towards me, but I quickly step back without thinking.

"You said you kissed him! What else am I suppose to think happened Ari?!"

"You're suppose to trust me! I didn't want to kiss him!! Fuck Y/n, do you really think I would fly all this way to see you, to help your brother, to fix our relationship, ALL JUST TO FUCK IT UP A FEW DAYS LATER?! NO! I didn't want to kiss Mikey, but I didn't have a choice! I had to for a music video! I tried to get out of it, but I couldn't! Not even Scooter could help me!!" She shouts, tears now running down her face.

I remain quiet, letting everything she's just told me sink in.

"I probably shouldn't of just said it like that-"

"You think?!" I tell her.

"-But you wouldn't stop asking me questions and I already felt really bad about it. I wanted to call you about it, but I didn't have enough time after trying to get out of the whole situation..." she says.

I don't know what to say.

"Y/n...P-Please say something" She asks.

"...."

"Y-You know I would never cheat on you, you have to believe me! I love you!..I-I love you more than...even more than I ever loved Mac..." She says.

Ariana's POV:

I watch Y/n's face carefully, but I can't tell what she's thinking. I've never loved anyone more than I did Mac. He was a big part of my life and he was such an angel, may god bless his soul. I still get upset sometimes when I remember that he's gone. He didn't deserve what happened to him, but there was nothing I could do. I knew he had problems when we were dating, and I did my best to help him, even after we broke up. But old habits die hard and one day it was all just too much and before I could do anything, he was gone. Y/n knows how much Mac meant to me. She knows that he will always hold a special place in my heart. But that doesn't mean he owns it. Y/n owns my heart and she has for awhile. I wasn't positive, not until we spent Christmas together. That night changed everything. I realized that there was no one else I would rather be with and it felt like Mac came down from above and told me that he agreed. I never told her this because I know how she gets when things move too fast, and considering that night was also our first time, I didn't want to push it any further. However, maybe now is the right time to tell her.

"Y/n, please..don't leave me...Y-You mean more to me than anyone else in the world. I would never cheat on you. I would never betray you, and I would never intentionally break your heart...because t-that would break my own..."

Y/n finally looks up at me and I can see that her eyes are starting to water.

"You have to believe me when I say that you are the one for me...Y-You're the only one and no one else will ever compare. You're what gets me out of bed in the morning and calms my nerves at night so that I can sleep. God damn if I had a ring, I would propose to you right now! But I don't, and don't plan on doing that. I want you to be the one that makes that decision, not me. Because I want you to be absolutely sure that that is what you want. Even if it's not for years to come, I will wait. I will wait because you are it for me Y/n. You are my light."

Y/n remained silent, and I was about ready to accept defeat, until I heard her finally speak.

"Ari..." she says.

I look at her and watch as a single tear falls down her cheek. Then she held her arms out to me and I instantly closed the space between us, letting my emotions finally take over, sobbing heavily into her chest.

"I believe you. I-I know you would never do anything to intentionally hurt me and I love you more than anyone else too. I-I just wish you said what you did differently, because then we could have avoided this whole argument." She says.

"W-Well if you had just let me breath for a second t-then I would have." I tell her chuckling slightly.

"I'm sorry." She whispers.

"For what?"

"For hurting you again...I told you that I would never do it again, but here you are crying in my arms over something that you couldn't control and I got mad at you." She says.

I tighten my grip around her waist.

"It's fine. You didn't know. I didn't even know, until it was too late. If I had known that was why I needed to go back to New York, I would have said fuck no and never left." I tell her and she laughs a little.

"Well, I'm glad that you're back" Y/n tells me.

"What happened to: its only been one day?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about" She says, a smile forming on her face, making me shake my head.

"You're such a hypocrite" I tell her as I connect my lips to hers in a much needed passionate kiss.

To Be Continued...

A/n: I hope you all enjoyed! Just please don't expect a lot out of me for the time being, as this whole virus thing and online classes are taking a toll on me. 🖤