love and drama

remembering the past

3 hours befor smack down tappings
Sam's POV
I wake up laying next to aj on the floor I sit up and I see Dolph playing on his phone he don't notice me so I walk over by him and sit on the bed next to him hey babe I say hey sunshine he says smilling babe is something wrong Dolph asked me yes a lot I had a bad dream I remembered my past babe is there something I should know about your past yes there's a lot let me tell you I start telling him my life story it all stared when I was 17 I would sit in my room for the longest time and I would sleep pretty much the floor whole day the only time I would go any were is if I had to use the bathroom or eat I would go to school act like everything is okay and put on a fake smile after school I go home eqt something then go right to bed I wtote story's about my life and I read that was all I did then my mom startrd geting worried about Mr she took me to a doctor and they found out I was badly depressed so they put me on medication It got better I got social again I did more and I didn't sleep much then the worst came Jan 1st my died got murdered in a bar fight
Authors note: in real life my dad did die on Jan 1st and I have depression most of the events I'm talking about in this part are true I suggest if your reading this and this is a hard subject for you to rear don't read this chapter
Then my depression grew bigger and worser Finley they only thing I did was cry it got so bad I wished my life away I thought everyone hated me but they all said they loved me but at the time I thought they were all lieing to me it got so bad one day when I was at school I just bursted out into tears and I refused to do anything I had to go to the office for 2 hours and just sit there eventually my mom found me help I got counseling it helped out a lot then I stated feeling better with life and stuff I was no longer in school because my depression affected my grades and my attendance so I droprd out I always wanted to be a war diva but I didn't know if I was able to become one because I didn't graduate I eventually worked hard and got to be were I am now and things are a little better but I just had a night mare about my past by now I was crying and my make up was running down my face I could tell Dolph was crying to but now look were I am I have the most amazing boyfriend ever to help me though my ups and downs I have the most amazing life ever I heard sobs coming from the floor I look down and I see my squad down on the floor crying that was the most saddest touching story we have ever heard Nikki said while crying yes it was they all agree you know what you guys y'all get up here so I can give u guys a hug so they all get up on the bed wnf we group hug I love you guys you all changed my entire life around I can Finley say I am enjoying my life as a diva things are finly falling into place I l ove my life