Just Another Day Of 5th Year

Remus: Part 1

Remus has never liked his scars. He didn't mind the ones that weren't a part of him being a werewolf those made him feel normal in a way like James or Sirius. The ones he hated and made him feel the most insecure were the ones that were caused by him being a werewolf. Not only were they not the most attractive things in the world, but they also made him feel like he had no control over his body. they made him feel powerless and not in control which he hated. And many students of all houses liked to pick on him about them, calling him different names from Scarface to Freddy Cougar. they affected him, sure, but he always tried to ignore them and take the high road.
Although Remus was nearly the tallest person in school at 6'4 he was lanky as all hell and skinny so it didn't do much for the fear factor associated with him. He was a tall boy who was skinny and covered in scars, not to mention the rumors had started a few weeks back that Remus was a homosexual which had been a new topic for bullying lately. One day after Ancient Runes (a class Remus had no friends in), 3 burly Ravenclaw boys walked up behind him and smashed him into the wall. They started yelling various insults at him. Things like fairy, twat, f*g, and Scarface. They punched his face and body and kicked him in less than desirable places. After they finished with him, they threw him to the ground and left laughing at the tears welling up in his eyes. Remus pushed himself up and ran to the nearest bathroom. He couldn't stand this it was getting worse it had gone from insults to getting beat up. He slumped against the bathroom wall and let himself break down. He was a werewolf bloody hell! How could he not defend himself? He was pathetic. He sat there crying to himself about so many things. When suddenly the door opened and someone said,
"Hey is someone in here?"
After turning the corner Remus saw that it was Sirius. Oh, great Remus thought now he got to be so vulnerable in front of not only his best friend but crush. Once Sirius saw and heard Remus he ran up to him questioning,
"Remus, what happened?"
Remus wiped his eyes on his sleeve and walked over to the sink nervously saying, " Nothing Sirius, I'm fine."
Sirius wouldn't take no for an answer and kept pestering Remus on what was wrong. At this point, Remus was at a very toxic combination of mad and insecure all at once. He truly felt good that Sirius cared about him, but jeez let him be sad. Finally, after another few rounds of pestering, Remus snapped and yelled out,
"You know what Sirius I'm not f**king fine, I f**king hate myself, I hate my life, I hate the way I look, I'm an ugly werewolf for god's sake and not to mention I'm hopelessly in love with my best friend."
Remus threw his hands over his mouth. He had said too much. He pushed Sirius out of the way running out of the bathroom leaving Sirius completely shocked. All Sirius could think about was why hadn't Remus ever opened up to us and which one of us is he in love with?