In your arms ~ Stephen x reader~ Kinda memey

4.

I wake up, and check my phone.
"Three deaths in north Vancouver." I see.
Hmph. I had no idea. I wonder how that happened.

I get ready, brush my teeth, hair, and take a shower. I dry my hair and put on a formal black dress. I head to work.

[Flashbacc]
"Oh my fucking god why the hell are you doing that?!" Erica yelled.
"Like your so fucking ugly anyways, why do you even try?" She adds.

[Present day]
Oh... yeah. Erica lee. She was a good friend of mine. She wasn't the nicest but... she made me popular.

I keep driving and try to ignore all my negative thoughts.
Just gotta go to work.

[Flashbacc]
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" Brian screamed, and suddenly he punches me.
My nose starts to bleed.
It's my fault.
I could have prevented this.

[Present day]
That was a long time ago.
Keep it out of your head Y/n.
Just keep breathing.

[Flashbacc]
"I don't wanna be friends with you anymore..." I mumble.
"You dumbass braceface." Erica yells.

[Present day]
"Okay Y/n. They're out of your life now." I say to myself. I go to work, and sit at a desk.
I work at an office.
It's boring. We just fill out papers.
I look in the mirror at my desk just to see if I've gotten a nosebleed yet.

When I get bad memories, I get nosebleeds.
🌸sadly a true story.🌸
I can't control them.
It just... it just pours out. Nothing I can do.
But I try to just stop them and make a tissue tampon thingy.
🌸embarrassingly also a true story.🌸
I just stuff toilet paper up my nose to stop blood like a tampon.
🌸if you are a male, I am extremely sorry.🌸

I make the tissue thing, and go back to my desk. I get on my computer and type out some documents.

I want to quit, but this job pays well surprisingly.

The blue sky turns orange, and I drive home.
I knock on the door.
"Hello." I smile.
Stephen stares at me, and takes his hand to my face.

"You uh... you got a little something there." Stephen says.
I see blood on his finger. Oh.
"That... that just happens. When I think a lot, I get nosebleeds." I mutter.

"Haha yeah I get nosebleeds when I think a lot too." He laughs.
"Perv." I laugh.
"But no, it's like traumatic memories." I say.
"Ah... well damn the guys you've been with must be hella bad-"
"Oh my god." I interrupt.
He smirks. ITS THAT WEIRLY HOT SMIRK AGAIN WHAT THE F-

I walk in the bathroom, and change into something less formal.
I wear a tight black crop top with some classic blue jeans.
I change my heels to white sneakers.

[Flashbacc]
"Ew why are you wearing that..?" Erica laughs.

[present day]
I quickly look at the mirror.
No blood. I'm good.
I step outside the bathroom.
I walk over to a window, and I feel the cold glass with my fingers.

I look outside, and it's the orange sky slowly forming into a dark blue, which will eventually turn into a deep black.

I sigh.
"Damn you hella sad, what happened?" He asks. "I dunno. I'm usually happy, but I guess bad memories are coming back to me." I say.
He nods. He walks beside me.

I feel his hand grab my waist and pull me in.
I lean in, and kiss him for a while.
I pull away for a second though.
"I like you. A lot." I mumble.
He smiles. "Yeah, you too."
He leans back in, and kisses me on the lips.
Slowly moving down to my neck, I get a little nervous.

I take a deep breath before running my fingers through his floofy hair.
He tucks my hair behind my ear, and I kinda feel like sick. But in a good way, if you actually understand that.

I kinda back up, and my lower legs hit the bed.
I feel him push me down into the bed, and I blush like heck.

I know I am 100% capable of moving.
But my body feels so frozen. I feel like Daniel could find out that we are technically dating, Stephen could stop liking me, I could screw something up.

But I should just stop worrying.
It's my negative thoughts and memories.
I should just go with it.
Live my life to the fullest and stop being a baby. I'm too scared.

I feel my crop top coming off a bit...
My face gets pink, and hot.
I squint over at the sky. It's now a deep black.
I close them again.

When I'm nervous I like to look at the sky.
It helps. A lot.
I'm not exactly nervous right now.
But I need to prevent any negative memories.

So. That was the end of that chapter. But hold on...

Actually. I doubt you care.
But if your still here...

I wanted to explain why I put so many toxic relationships in there.

Well... let's just say I cut off a 4 year relationship, and a 10 year relationship. I am devastated.

My ex boyfriend Anatoli sent me this message.

"Well Leia's Asian ass probably has the coronavirus. She's not even that thick like you baby."
He sent another one saying:
"Olive I love you."

He meant to send that to my best friend... Olive.

I was so mad. He was a cheating liar, so I finally confronted him and wrote:

"You sent that to your girlfriend. Leia..."

He just kept asking for me back, saying it was all a joke and he didn't mean it.

I just wanted to announce so you know why I put so many sad stuff in here.

And yes, the nosebleed thing happens to me.

You may know the story of my brother. If you don't...

He was depressed and suicidal.
He attempted to end his own life many times.
When I saw my brother like this,
I had nosebleeds.

When my boyfriend cheated on me... nosebleeds.
When I have memories of my mother drinking, and almost killing me because she drove while drunk...
Nosebleeds.

I think it's because my brain likes to trigger a part of me where I get nervous and just bleed.

Anyway, sorry it took me a whole day to get this part out.

Love you.