A Lively Look into a Heartbreaker

College Sophomore Year Pt 2

A few months into meeting Zach and having our little flings, I met Sam. Oh Sam, I wish you hadn't of gone nuts in a way, I think we would of worked, well worked until I got sick and tired of you, like I do everyone. I met Sam on tinder just as I met Zach, but we said we met at Dunkin, funny since we never went to one even when we still talked. We had this whole story that was rehearsed about him and I bumping into each other and him offering to buy me my coffee and then us sitting and talking and exchanging numbers, its really cute if you think about it. But he actually picked me up in his car, and we drove to a fancy hot dog place, he parked in a parking garage and he commented about my leggings as we walked down the stairs, i wiggled my butt and suck my tongue out, and we went to lunch. It felt like fate when the special hot dog of the day was a Hawaiian themed one, but fate works in a mysterious way. We talked for what seemed like hours, and I looked you in the eyes and lied and lied and lied, I told you what you wanted and needed to hear to fall for me. It was easier than expected, you were soft, weak and you just wanted someone to love you and to care for you, and I ate it the fuck up. The first night I came to spend with you, I had absolutely no intention of sleeping with him, and I never did, but it only led him on the more and more I saw him, he thought of me as his girlfriend and to me he was just a cute tall guy who fell for an easily bated trap. I met his parents, we planned on vacationing to Amsterdam, we went to a masquerade and then that Valentine's day everything changed. He started to get angry, and scary, and cruel, I told him I could no longer be his friend. He drove faster than before, blatantly drinking while speeding, he said he started doing coke again, it was not a person I wanted, I bounced, as I always do.  He revered to his old ways before he had met me, he cried and yelled profanities at me and wished me the best life I could have without him. But to Sam, I'm sorry, you were already fucked up when I met you, I only made it worse, and it'll haunt me till it doesn't, who knows when that'll be? You pop into my head here and there, little things will remind me of moments and laughs we shared, but I only messed you up more and I still would to this day. You've soften me, and I'd like to thank you for that.

In between Zach and Sam was Tom, and there isn't much to say about him, other than he was a blast to be around. We would laugh and binge Mr. Robot, eat and smoke and eat more and cuddle and go to parties. Being with Tom was the epitome of college life, and I lived for it, those were the moments I felt like I was a real college student, balancing partying, school, him, a social life, Zach, staying fit and Sam. I was busy, but I always made time for it all, still now I don't know how I maintained it all. But the fling with Tom died as quickly as it began and over a few months we were fizzled out. 

Then it all changed, when I met Nick. Completely different from all the rest, other than meeting him on Tinder. Honestly i don't want to get into it all with him, as we aren't offically over, and as we had a good relationship from his point of view, but it was shitty at a fair bit of times on my end. Nick made a sad housewife out of a wild heart breaker, but we all go back to our old ways.