I awoke to my saddest thing ever. My alarm clock is reminding me that I leave today. I was in a fold of Shawn's warm embrace. I don't want to leave!
He rolled over to cut the alarm clock off , rolled over and looked back at me .
"Are you ready" he asked
"I will never be ready" I said
And soon enough I found myself with no arms around me . I guess that was the signal for me to get ready .
I got up and went to change .
I changed into Shawn's maroon obey hoodie , high waisted shorts and my black converse.
I let my hair flow loosely and freely . It was very wavy but cayoot .
I put on BB cream and eyeliner and mascara.
Then I was ready!
We where silent all the way downstairs and to the elevator .
We got in the elevator shaft
Still silent until Shawn looked down and whispers something to himself.
"Ahsjfkdhsbak" he whispers
I tried to makeup what he said but all of it was gibberish.
"What" I asked
"I'm going to miss you" he said looking up.
Before I could respond back the elevator doors opened and We got out .
We where off to the air port in no time in a long black limousine.
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At the airport
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We finally got to the airport and I got out of the warming seat and crawled out.
I felt a strong guitar skilled hand grasp mine.
Shawn squeezed my hand 3 times.
"Do it back" he chuckles
"Why" I ask
"It can be our thing. It means 'forever and always' " he says doing it again.
I then instantly reacted and squeezed right back.
I love him!
We got to concourse A2 which was the one I was flying and to only see a group of boys waiting for me.
Magcon . They where there.
I looked at Shawn and he nodded his head .
I let go of Shawn's hand and ran over to the boys only to get tackled by every single one of them.
"We will miss you" they all said in unison except for Cameron. He was standing beside his luggage and smiling at me .
"Wait ,your leaving" I asked
"Yeah" he said .
He walked over to me and hugged me . "I'll miss you"
"Me too" I say hugging back!
"Hey can we get a goodbye too" Matthew protest!
I turned around and gave him a hug
"REMEBER OUR HANDSHAKE HAYDEN,YOU BETTER" he threatens .
"I will" I laughed "as long as you don't forget me" I said
"I would never" he said squeezing me tighter .
We let go and I went on down the row.
"Hey taylor " I said hugging him
"Hay Hayden , I'm going to miss you babe" he slurs like a drunk man.
"Very funny caniff" I laugh "but I will miss you to"
Next was Aaron
"Awee , it's the innocent boy" I said and laughed
"And I can not help that" he grins
"I'll miss you Aaron" I smiled
"I'll miss you to" he said giving me a light squeeze.
Next nash
"HAYDEN DONT GO I LOVE YOU YOUR THE BEST FRIEND I HAVE EVER HAD AND I DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU BECASUE YOUR MY BAE AND I CANT STAND YOU LEAVING AND I NOT SEEING YOU AT ALL SO IM POROBALY GONNA DIE BECASUE ITS VERY TRAGIC" he states in one breath.
"Nash , whatever you just said ........okay " I nod
"Hug me squirt" he holds his arms out
"EeeeeWww nash germs" I back away
"Thanks for that" he sarcastically spoke.
I ended up hugging him in the end anyways.
Then I continued down the line.
Until I saw a teary eyed boy with the rosiest cheeks I've ever seen.
I instantly hug him .
The other guys left to give us time alone and that was our final goodbyes..
"Shawn I want to" I said
"Want to what" he asked confused and sniffles.
"I want to try long distance with you" I speak
"Hayden,if your not comfortable with it I'm not going to force you" he said looking up tears streaming down his burning red cheeks .
"Shawn, I realize that what I have with you, I have never had before. I have never fell so far,so long, so fast ! I know that I want to at least try it. So I'm going to do it for us. I know it will be hard , believe me , but I think we can make it through this together and work it out. Shawn , I love you and I don't plan on loosing you . I see that we won't be able to take cute pictures everyday or go on picnics at night by surprise. Or cuddle , but some how some way , I crave you. For example take the heart out of a body , what would there be left to keep that person going? Nothing ! So you are my heart to my body, without knowing your mine. I just can't handle it! So I'm going to take m my shot , even though it's scary " I said crying at the end !
"Hayden,this is the craziest thing I've ever done! But you take me away,the first time I met you,I couldn't take my eyes away. How you are so gentle and gorgeous and your an amazing human being that crossed paths with me! You aren't like any other girls out there. I love how you always have a spark in your eyes. I'm to secured to let you go. I have to know your going to be mine always and forever. I know we won't be able to do all of the cute couple stuff together. But your worth waiting for. I love you Hayden Paige Ward" he said!
"I love you to Shawn" I hugged him!
"Flight 307 will be taking off in 5 minutes" says the intercom
"I guess I have to go" I let go.
"I'll miss you" he added
"Dido" I said
"Last call for flight 307" the intercom reported
"Bye Shawn" I hug him
"No" he states
"What" I ask
"It's never goodbye , it's always a see you later" he hugs!
I look up and kiss his soft pure lips.
And a tear roles down our eyes.
I turn to leave .
And I start walking backwards facing a sad Shawn.
"See you later"
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"See you later" !
