When My Pen Writes Anger

Freak Side

Ambitions and dreams are farther than stars,
Tomorrow it seems like I won't get that far.
Disappointments rescued me,
Hopelessness captured me.
All sorrow and hatred. Can I borrow your patience?
My visions have faded and I have lost my conscience.
Constantly battling with myself,
My mind is like every single book on a shelf.
I feel 10 emotions at the same time,
I'm looking at myself from a different timeline.

"What is wrong with you?" I constantly ask.
Forever is almost over but I am still wearing a mask.
My smile is a lie, my laugh is a cry.
If tomorrow I'll die, I promise I don't mind.

My brain brain can't think correctly,
"Emptiness feels so heavy"
I told myself while I was laughing with "friends"
I don't wanna breathe so I won't have regret.

"I'm sorry for the words I've said" while I was telling you I'll kill you,
I hit you and stabbed you, and then I cried with you.

I feel like I need to see,
The paradise 6 feet under me.