Girl Of Fire - vampire one direction

Curse Your Mind Games!!

The heavy silance fell upon the room as the others waited eagerly for my responce. I cant believe I'm doing this, and I'm not really feeling comfortable with it, and now after what just happened I feel more out of touch with my powers now than ever. I feel stupid for actually trusting this sorry bunch after just spending literally 24 hours or so with them. But they obviously know more about this foreign world than me. My gut tells me to do what they say, but my stomach says no fucking way I'm drinking blood. I realise I might have had some instinctive thing happen when I saw Harry's blood running down his strong forearm, but it still feels like a side of me that shouldn't really exist. I've only grown up with my fire ability's, not my vampire side. It has never occurred to me that I had such a side to me other than the fire yielding side I was use to.

But what happens if I choose to drink the gross substance? Will I become more like them and need it constantly? I seem to have survived without it for 18 years of my life without so much as a struggle. I don't want to decide to drink it then not be able to fight the urge to continue. On the other hand, they claim it will help me gain more control over my powers. Maybe I will become more like Zayn? I sure would like that, his fire yielding looks like a second nature to him. While I normally have to focus a fare amount to even use mine. These troubling thoughts run through my mind as I struggle to piece together all the pros and cons of this painful desicion. I let out a deep breathe as I convince myself that my decision will somewhat benefit myself in some way and not just cause me to crash an burn in the future.

"I'll do it." I said forcing myself to speak and not immediately take it back as soon as those words passed my lips.

The heavy silence that hung in the room seemed to slowly lighten as the seconds dragged on. The vampires features lightening at my words. Even the security guard looked pleased by my choice.

"I honestly thought you would have needed more persuading than that." Liam admitted unfolding his arms. The side if my lips twitched into a smile as the boys started to pipe up on their opinions. To be completely honest, I feel kind of relieved to know my powers might be more easily controlled after my first drink of blood. It's like a huge weight has been lifted of my shoulders to know it could get easier for me. I feel Harry give my bare thigh a light squeeze, pulling me out of my thoughts to meet his eyes. His dimples reveal themselves as his lips curl into a grin. I feel like he hasn't left my head since the kitchen and as much as I don't appreciate him listening to my private thoughts, it is comforting to know he can see things my way and understand what I'm feeling. Harry shoots me a sly wink confirming my suspicions before turning back to the convocation.

"It's better if we start to leave now or we will be late" The security guard said as he stumbled to his feet. This security guard looks like he has more fat than muscle, but I'll take him over the other one any day. He has more of an exotic look, his dark arms are coated in black ink and one of his beefy arms looks like it's entirely covered in tribal tattoos. He Doesn't look as intimidating as the other dude but I still wouldn't pick a fight with him.

"There will be twice as more security at the venue so I suggest doing it their before we do rehearsals" The buff man ordered. "It's a less risk environment"

"Well that's settled then" Liam nodded glancing at us all.

"But who's it going to be?" Niall pipped us causing us all to fall silent from the mind boggling question.

I don't know who I want to drink from, this is such a foreign subject to me that I honestly don't even know how I would even drink it without gagging and completely feel sick from the experience. The silence clung to the air around us like fog as we all exchanged glances with each other, waiting to see what each one will it be.