DECEMBER, PART TWO | minsung | completed.

𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚑𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗

you caressed my cheek, preparing to speak to me for probably the last time.

"jisung, if you can hear me, i just want to say, i love you so fucking much. you're my whole world, and i never thought i'd lose you like this. i wanted to get married, adopt kids, and grow old together. we planned out our whole future, and it hurts knowing you won't physically be in mine. i'll miss your gorgeous smile, your beautiful laugh, waking up next to you. i'll miss all of the amazing memories we made together. i'll never forget the day we first met. it was the best day of my entire life. i wish you would've told me you were struggling. you know i would've helped you. this was a permanent solution, to a temporary problem, and now you can't go back. it pains me to know that those people at school pushed you so far, that you had to end your own life. it isn't fair. life isn't fair. i know you'll want me to move on, but i know it will be impossible to stop loving the most important person in my life. han jisung, i love you so fucking much, and you'll always be in my heart, forever and always."

you kissed me one last time, as i heard the deafening beep of my own heart monitor.