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over thinking leads to this. i didn't expect jimin to react like that. it's like he is disgusted with my sexual preference or i just misunderstood his facial expression or sentence? but in another way around. it was a rejection. it was painful of course, to have this thoughts that jimin was grossed about me or something like that. i just want to at least be accepted by him. just friendship, but it will be all so impossible because of my stupid sudden confession.

where did i mustered that courage though? i regret everything but now. i have a peaceful heart, nothing was bothering me to confess anymore. i can breathe fine because i already did.

i'm getting tired each day, to be enclosed in this four walls and just a sight of the neighborhood in my little window. i know it has been a daily routine for me but this one is different. i can go downstairs whenever i want but now, everytime someone knocks on my door and everytime my mom pushed me downstairs it's like a torture. i am afraid of what will happen if i faced him, talked to him, i am afraid of the worst case scenarios that has been running through my thoughts every single time.

it's chilly, must be my fever, which taking much longer than normal. taehyung even questions me why am i not getting better. my headache kills me more than ever. i, i wanna be taken care of jimin. that stupid thought.

it has been raining a lot these days, i wonder why

-myg