breathe ¬ han jisung

¬j'one

"wake up, sleepyhead!" I heard felix say, beginning to shake me. "we're late!!" i was too tired to even open my eyes. he opened the blinds and everything to try and wake me up. "I slept at 6 am. we have nothing to do today. let me sleep!" I let out a groan, hiding under my thick blanket. he just wouldn't leave me alone.

"seungmin and I made pancakes with fruit smoothies! don't wanna try them?" he asked me. "of course not. you added too much butter last time you made pancakes and for just ruined all the fruits we had." I finally opened my eyes, trying to adjust to the brightness of the room. Felix looked hurt. I probably offended him.

"i'm kidding. come here." he pulled the male closer and cuddled him. "let's sleep a little more, yeah?"

a few hours passed of felix and I just cuddling and sleeping, chris woke us up by blasting 'wow' in our ears. I hated it. it's not the fucking time for 'excuse me noona do you have a boyfriend?'! burn that whole song pls thank you.

I got up and looked around. such a beautiful day. what am I supposed to do here? maybe have a walk after eating? I'm not sure.. I got up and did my daily morning routine. then I ate breakfast.

hyunjin approached me. "hey." he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.

"good morning, jisung."

"shut the fuck up." I said, glaring up at him. yes. that was the kind of affection I give him. since predebut days. hyunjin ruffled my hair. "you do that every morning. I just can't seem to take you seriously because I have to look down at you." hyunjin joked, letting out a his signature laugh. this bitch. I hit his chest and he fell back dramatically. of course.

"I'm not short. don't ruin my morning, hwang hyunjin." I told him, drinking my orange juice. he got up from the floor and he looked down at me. "oooh, I'm so scared!" he couldn't stop laughing. this kid. I want to punch his attractive face and rip it up into pieces. "I'm gonna go for a walk later. wanna join me?" I asked him.

"nope. I'm gonna stay with changbin in his studio." he wiggled his eyebrows. "oh gosh. please don't." i made a puking sound. "no!! not that. he wants my voice for the new album." "yeah yeah. whatever. go have fun with your 'alpha'" I moved away quickly, running to minho and hiding behind him. hyunjin clearly looked offended. I looked up at minho. "hey soulmate~"

"no, you cannot take my cats on your walk." he said in a monotone voice while going through SNOW filters. he took selcas and was ready to post them in the Stray Kids official Instagram account. I pout at him. "all the time! you know I'm scared of people so I need something to protect me."

minho hyung looked at me dead in the eyes. "did you just say.. something? are you saying my cats are OBJECTS?!" oh no. he's mad. next person to run to. channie hyung. chan looks at me. "what's up?" he asked. I looked at him and pointed at the mad hyunjin and minho, planning my death together. "they want to kill me." I hugged his arm. so buff..

chan hyung let out a chuckle and ruffled my blonde hair. "just go on a walk. be careful through." he moved my arms away from his. "you can come to my studio once you're done having a walk, okay?" he treated me like his little brother. that's why he's so special to me. he inspired me. even though he yells a lot, I know he still loves us.

"okay. do you want some coffee on my way back?" I asked and he nods. he gave me some money. "go buy yourself some chocolate cake too." I looked at him with happy eyes when he mentioned chocolate cake. "will do!" I smiled at him before getting dressed up to go on a walk.

the world has been so quiet lately. it was relaxing but also suffocating.. I wanted to go out and walk to breathe some air outside. I've been happier lately. staying at home made me feel like I've found myself. I'm now happy. my mental health is so much better.. I'm glad to have my friends, family and fans with me. they helped me through my way. I miss my parents, but I'm glad they're safe in malaysia and visiting korea often to see me.

I walked around the quiet city. there were still a lot of people but not as much as before. the weather was nice. a beautiful spring day.. the clouds looked like cotton candy and the sun was waving its rays at the people of this world. the trees' leaves were dancing to the sound of the wind and flowers were blooming.

who could feel sad on a day like this?
I went on my way to grab some coffee at a nearby cafe. I got in line and hesitated to say my order. "u-uh.. one iced americano please. and one slice of chocolate cake." I said in a soft voice, but they got what I said. they made my order and took the tray once they called my name. "thank you." and I walked to have a seat. but then..

'excuse me?'

i felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned my head and saw a pretty girl. i turned to face her. "hi. I'm bang heeyoung.. I saw you on TV and I've been a fan for a while.. maybe we could be friends..?"

that was so sudden. I didn't expect a random girl to ask if she wanted to be friends.

"and I'm new here.. I came from gwangju, so I need someone to guide me.." she avoided looking into my eyes. "I can help you. it's always nice making a new friend." she seemed so quiet.. and sad. I put my hand on her shoulder.

"could I have your number?"

we asked at the same time. I let out a soft chuckle. "you should give me your number. I don't give my number out to anyone so keep this secret." I told her. she nods and she gave me some tissue paper with her number on it. "I'll see you around." she turned around and walked out of the cafe.

that's when I knew

i had to make this girl smile..