lips are moving [muke]

04

michael ignored me for the next three weeks, and i won't lie, it hurt me more than i ever admitted. michael was my best friend and i was really scared i did something wrong.

should i have kissed him back? hell, i was thinking that anyway.

when i finally cornered him, it was between classes, and we were in the toilets. the look of dread on his face when i walked into the room was priceless. he actually tried to escape. he coughed awkwardly and tried to make his way around me, but i grabbed his wrists and pinned him to the wall.

his eyes widened as he started at me his cheeks turning a light pink. l-luke, he says and cannot say anything else because he is overwhelmed with emotions.

i bit my lip, almost forgetting what i was here for, and then i was fumbling over my words. i meant to ask him why he was ignoring me, but instead i said, you kissed me.

he did not reply. he looked down at the floor, his head hanging in shame.

i let his wrists go and let my hands fall back to their sides. i looked at michael, with his pink hair and lips. then i swallowed my pride, deciding to be truthful with him. mikey, i whispered, i-i liked it. and i'm confused.

his eyes briefly flickered to mine, and i saw the slight dilation in his pupils and how red his lips parted lips were. you... you liked it? he sounded just as puzzled as i felt, but his eyes held hope, like he had a chance. luke, if i uh, haven't made it obvious already... i'm uh... i'm gay. he said awkwardly. 

of course, i suspected that, i mean it's not everyday your best friend who is in fact, the same gender as you, kisses you full on the mouth. even though i knew it was coming, i had no clue what to say to him. no one had ever come out to me before. so i didn't say anything at all. instead i did a really stupid thing. i let my eyes linger on his cherry red lips and just kissed him. 

he kissed back at first, but eventually, he pushed me off. i threw him a look of bewilderment, what?

michael was blushing, but for some reason there were tears in his eyes, s-stop. he held a shaky hand in front of him. i was concerned for him and tried to reach out and comfort the boy, but he flinched away. 

i frowned, mikey, what's wrong?

he shook his head, i've been with straight boys before. michael explained slowly. luke, i don't want that again. i don't want to be your dirty little secret. 

the amount of pain in his eyes was greater than any pain i'd ever seen before. before i could answer him and promise him it wouldn't be like that, he ran past me, getting away before i could hold him back. 

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long time no update, hm? this chapter is really bad, i apologize, but i hope you all can find it in your kind little hearts to forgive me?