you.
you're perfect, at least in my eyes you are. you're the kind of perfect guy i've always dreamed of.
i had feelings for you, i cared for you when no one did but all i get in return was disappointment.
i never blamed you.
who would want to be with a person like me? even i wouldn't. i'm someone whos pretty messed up in the head, someone who had always have the thoughts of ending her life, someone who isn't close to perfect far from it.
i hope now is the right time where i could say that i'm better.
now that i'm better,
i read back all of our texts. it saddens me how desperately i wanted you back then, how dumb i was for you.
i feel dumb.
dumb for trying to get your attention,
dumb for trying to make something between us happen,
dumb for you.
now that i'm better,
all i could hope was the best for myself. to stay this way forever. i wouldn't want to lose myself ever again, ever.
i hope you won't come around to reach me again.
