𝐲𝐨𝐮 | 𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

depressed

⚠️SUICIDAL MENTIONS⚠️
imagine btw
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Y/N's POV

I woke up to Billie, My girlfriend shaking me to get ready for school. "Babyyy you need to wake up mamas." She whines. I sit down looking at her pouting. She pinches my cheeks while smiling at me "you are sooo cute my baby!!"

I hug her waist as she hugs me back. "Y/N get ready now!!" She says. I get ready and i pick my outfit. You wore a black oversized hoodie to hide the cuts on your arm along with shorts and wide fishnet stockings.

"Y/N! Come down here!!!!!!" Billie yells.
I rush down the stairs while hooking onto the handrail. "I prepared breakfast for you." She says while smiling. I run over to hug her tightly "i luv u." I said while making a baby voice "i love you too." She says while kissing my forehead.

After i finish breakfast Billie brings me to school. While driving she asks me "you good baby?" She says while looking at me; concerned. I was staring at the window thinking of how today is gonna go. I was always bullied since i started dating Billie. Billie was every girl's crush. Until Billie stopped going to school.

I snap out of my thoughts and say "yeah, yeah."
She says "ok.." while frowning.

"Y/N, we are here." She says while pulling up to the school. While opening the door and getting my bag, Billie says "i love you!" I say "i love you too!"

I walk into the school seeing the girls who bully me. Their names are Erin, Hannah, Naima.
They have told me things like "you're so pathetic! Maybe Billie decided to date you because she felt bad for your miserable life!"

They would also hurt me physically, like throwing their books at me and slapping me.
I would have bruises but i cover it with makeup so Billie wouldn't know.

I was on my locker looking for the books for my next period while the bullies turn me around and push me to the wall. Naima said "Hi Whore!" While smiling. Hannah said "Can't you kill yourself pleaaaasseee??" She said while pulling my hair.

Erin says "what a crybaby." She says while throwing her heavy bag at me "oww!" I said while crying.

Hannah puts her hand on my neck, almost choking me. "You don't deserve Billie."
She lets go and then slaps me. Leaving a red mark on my face.

I run to the bathroom locking myself in one cubicle "while crying and rubbing my tears.
I pull out a blade from my pocket and i start to cut my arm.

I cut my self five times on both arms. I said to myself "I-i'm n-not perfect for -B-billie." while hyperventilating.

I wipe my tears while walking out if the bathroom. After our last period, i went outside to wait for Billie.

*phone vibrated*

Notification From Billie 💘

Billie: Hey my love, im almost there. Just wait 1 more minuteeee ily

You: ok billie! Ilyt
seen

I see Billie's car in front of the school. I run to the car with a fake smile on my face while trying to hold back my tears.

Billie asks "how was your day my lil baby?" While placing a hand on my thigh.

I said "it was good." I lied.
Billie says "you're so beautiful and perfect. I'm so lucky. She says while having a big smile on her face.

I cover my face while blushing and still hiding my sadness.

As soon as we got home, i unlocked the door running to the restroom. Billie shouts "Y/N!"
But i ignored her.

I locked the bathroom door while crying and sitting down behind the door. I pull out my blade again while cutting my arms again. I was sobbing loudly.

Billie knocks on the door saying "baby, are you good?" I said "yeah." While i lied. "Baby, you are not good." She had her keys with her and unlocked the bathroom door while she caught me cutting my arms.

At the moment she saw me I threw the blade in the shower and covered my arms. She ran to me and pushed up my sleeves revealing my cuts.

She pulled me in for a tight hug while holding my back and head close. I start to sob on her shirt. She rubs my back a little.

"Why Y/N why?" She asks while tearing up.
I said "I'm sorry, Billie. I kept on getting bullied since i started dating you. They would tell me to kill myself and that i'm a whore and that i don't deserve you."

Billie looks at me; crying. Billie says "please, don't listen to them. You're perfect and i love you with every part of me. You're the love of my life." While wiping my tears away.

She kisses my forehead lightly as she carries me to the bed. She cuddles and pulls me close to her chest.

Tears started falling from my eyes. Billie wipes them with her thumbs while saying "Please don't cry. It hurts me when i see the love of my life cry."

I ask her "can you please sing to me?" I curl up against her as she hugs me.

She sings "i had a dream, i got everything i wanted" "And you say as long as I'm here, no one can hurt you" " You wouldn't wonder why you hear
They don't deserve you" 

I had a dream, i got everything i wanted and when i wake up i see, you with me."

My eyes started to grow heavy as i drift into a deep sleep in her arms.