Raphael x OC x Spencer Reid

Chapter 2

During the flight from Virginia to New York City, Angel sat alone in the corner of the jet, looking over the file. While it looked liked she was reading the case file, her mind wasn't there at all. No, her thoughts were wrapping themselves around the possibility of seeing Raphael again. It's been seven months since Angel last saw and even spoke to Raphael. She always knew that there was a possibility of a case in New York City, but she still hoped that it wouldn't happen. There was no telling how she would react. Would she break down and cry? Or ignore him and act as though their relationship never happened?

Yea right. Like that could ever happen. Raphael was her first love, and she knew that he still holds an essential place in her heart. The bigger question she asked herself is, why did she care so much? It was clear he didn't care about her and moved on very quickly. She should be able to do the same.

Angel got so caught up in her thoughts, and she almost didn't notice Spencer. Spencer noticed that she had been staring at the same page for the past half hour and got concerned. He walked up, taking a seat in front of her—he then gently tapped on the file, and drawing her attention towards his concerned eyes.

"Angel, are you okay? You've been staring at the same page for the past half hour." Spencer asked in a soft, concerned tone. He gently pulled the file from her hands and closed it, setting it on the table.

Angel looked up at Spencer and let a sigh escape her lips. It wasn't news that Spencer knew almost everything about Raph, but she hated to bring up her issues. In Angel's mind, her concerns were hers alone to cope. Not Spencer's. Not Emily's. No one except for herself. Despite knowing and believing this, the minute Angel looked into Spencer's eyes; she couldn't help but tell him what she was thinking. She knew that whatever they talked about in private, stayed between them with no judgment. Angel bit her bottom lip before she started to speak, "It's just......I left New York City seven months ago after Raph left me. The thought of possibly running into him is- I don't even know how to explain it. I know in my heart, I still love him dearly, but at the same time, I can't help but still feel that pain. Pain that, I don't want ever to feel again. What if I see him and run right back into his arms? I don't want to give him that power again, but I also don't know if I'd be strong enough to reject him. I mean, I haven't seen or talked to him in seven months. I just, I don't know how to react to that." Angel finished her rambling and noticed her silent tears running down her face. Despite her crying, she also felt like a significant weight was lifted off her shoulders. Angel spent so long trying to bury these feelings and thoughts deep down; it felt nice to let them out.

Spencer listened patiently, and once she finished, he gave her a soft smile before reaching over the table to take her hand into his. He stuttered to come up with the words, but he knew what he wanted to tell her. "Angel, you always bear the world's weight on your shoulders, and you still worry about others that you forget to take care of yourself. While some find it a flaw- I see it, endearing. You are the smartest, kindest, most generous woman I've ever met. Not to mention, you are drop-dead gorgeous. I know you're not ready for a relationship, and I understand that. I just, I can't go on keeping it a secret anymore," Spencer paused for a moment, taking a deep breath before continuing, "I really like you. A lot. From the moment I met you, I've had a crush on you. I was just afraid to tell you because I didn't want to ruin our friendship, and I wanted to give you time to recover. But, after hearing your thoughts, I couldn't help but feel the need to tell you this. Especially if we do run into your ex. I didn't want to not tell you, then wake up one day and find out I was too late to tell you how I feel. I'll support you in whatever you choose, and if you want, I'll stay by your side if we ever do run into your ex." Spencer finished talking before he looked into her eyes.