When does it end

The Beginning

It has been a week since I met josiah and six days since we started dating. I don't know why I feel so happy. I have had plenty other relationships, but can I really say i've ever had one that's made me feel so alive when I haven't even known him half my life. Me and Josiah Skype every night till almost dawn and it gives me comfort to know when I fall asleep that he stays with me even if it is just over video chat if you know what I mean. Another thing is and I didn't think about it till now is what about my parents. I'm not aloud to date since my last relationship ended in tears and heart break. His name was Jacob and I thought we had something. Apparently not when he started to hit and hurt me. Things between him and I ended more quickly then I thought. It took me four months to find someone new and that's where Josiah came in. Josiah has had me in his life for a short time but he has already made a difference. Days continued to pass and he broke up with me after two weeks. He told me that he couldn't have a relationship where he couldn't see me just once a month at a party. I was so upset. I won't lie when I say I was in tears cause I really was and it hurt a lot . I don't know why it hurt so much if it was only two weeks. Later the same night he wanted to get back together and he shouldn't of broken up with me so I took him back. The next day me and my friend Liz went to go hang with our friend Jacob. Jacob and I were far ahead of Liz and we were just talking i don't know what I was thinking. I knew I would start liking him and that is exactly what happened. So that day maybe around 4:27pm I texted Josiah and lied to him. I told him my parents wouldn't let me date and I remember how much guilt I felt for it but jacob was there to make me feel better about it. Liz told me that I made a stupid decision and I didn't realize it till two days later. I texted Jacob when I got home from school and he broke up with me for another girl. I felt so STUPID! I let go Josiah for some jerk and I wish I didn't but I'm afraid it was too late for us now. Again, later that day Josiah texted me and he was pissed. He found out about me and Jacob and found out how I lied to him. I remember how I started to cry and how horrible i felt. I was doing laundry about 7:12pm and I texted Josiah and asked him if he would please take me back and forget those two days and act like nothing happened. He replied and said we could. He told me sometimes you just have to forget and forgive. I had tears in my eyes when he told me and I can remember him saying I knew you would start crying. I told him how sorry I was about a million times even though each and every time he would say it was okay. I know I didn't deserve his forgiveness but I'm so thankful he gave it to me. I reassured him and myself I would never make the same mistake.