You Thought So

Chapter 4

KYRA JEAN CASTAÑEDA

I am walking downstairs from the rooftop, still looking at the blue handkerchief given by someone I don't know and someone whom I will not meet again (I presumed). As I land my feet on the last step of the stairs, my phone rang.

[Kaze]

"Hm?"
'Buti naman sinagot mo agad, where are you?'
"I'm about to meet you. Asan ka?"
'Papunta sa'yo'

From not-so-far distance, I saw him waving at me. I ran towards him.

"How did you know I was here?"

"I know how your mind works. Pupunta ka sa pinakamalayong kaya mong takbuhin para walang humabol sa'yo."

He smiled and patted my head that made me slightly irritated. I quickly slap his arm.

"Stop it."

He put his hands on his pockets.

"Hindi naman halatang umiyak ka. Your eyes are swollen. Buti safe pa yang kilay mo"

Napansin niyang nakatingin ako sa isang panyo. Hinablot niya yun mula sa'kin.

"San mo to nakuha? You're not a kind of person who use hankies"

He looked straight into my eyes and waited for my honest answer. I sighed and snatch away the blue piece of cloth from him.

"Someone gave it to me. He said that I can only return this if I will not cry for the same reason."

My statement only made him even more curious. He raised his eyebrow and gave me a questioning look.

"Where is he from? What faculty? What year is he in? What's his name? Did he gave his number?"

"Wait! Ang dami mong tanong. As if naman na magkikita kami ulit."

Mas lalo siyang napaisip sa mga sinabi ko.

"Hmm, now that you mentioned it, does that mean na he knows you and he's really going to meet you again?"

I shook my head in disbelief on all his thoughts.

"Alam mo, tara na. Sayang breaktime"

I pull him away from that place and went exactly to where our other friends are staying.

I'm really grateful to my friends dahil sa lahat ng mga pinagdaanan ko from the past, andun sila para sakin. They didn't give up on me kahit ako, muntik na 'kong tumigil. Most especially, I'm thankful to my bestfriend Kaze dahil he never left my side kahit mas nauna niyang maging kaibigan si Jaspher.

Speaking of which, kinukulit nila akong magkwento about the guy I met on the rooftop of Medicine Building.

"Sandali nga, can you tell me first what happened kanina? Sinapak niyo ba? Inaway niyo?"

Their eyes, all went on different angles avoiding mine. This is not something I expected from them.

"So kinamusta niyo siya? Binati niyo and kinaibigan?"

"Never in a million years."

Dane guiltily said.

"Eh ano nga? Bakit umiikot yang mga mata niyo?"

I quite raised my voice to scare them.

"It's Kaze. Pinigilan niya kaming palagan yung gagong yun. Iisahan ko na sana kaso he got in the way." He said again with a tone of guilt and affirmation.

"Really? I think tama lang naman yung ginawa ni Kaze. And we shouldn't act on our own dahil labas parin tayo sa issue nila."

As expected from Gabby, being considerate of him and trying to understand every pieces of reasons each sides have.

"Ang sabihin mo, you're playing safe. Trying to be neutral pero walang sariling desisyon"

That's Jazz throwing shades to Gab.

"Tama na nga. Sorry Kyra. He said he wants to make it up to you."

I'm so exhausted already. Ang daming nangyari ngayon araw. All I could do right now is sigh.
I'm trying to be rational. If moving on was already part of my plan, dapat dati ko pa ginawa. But now, everything is different from what I expected and everyone is being affected by the hate I cherished for a very long time. I shouldn't act according to my own judgement anymore, instead, I need to consider my friends.

I smiled and face each of them.

"Thank you sa inyo. All these years, you've always been by my side and I'm already overwhelmed from how you handled him. I think, from now on, regarding with this matter, I should handle it on my own. Of course, iuupdate ko kayo pero you've done enough for me."

"Are you serious? Bibigyan mo ng chance yung lalaking yun? After ng lahat?"

Dane showed his disbelief and looked away.

"let's just say na, I accepted his apology. The rest, it's up to me now. If he wants to talk, I'll talk. Pero it doesn't mean that I want him back. Okay?"

They all gave me silence. I don't know what that means but I know its good.

After a few moments of nothing, Kaze finally break the ice.

"Anyways, anong plan niyo for next semester?"

"I think, I'll get dancing as a subject for my Physical Education class" Jazz said.

"Bugbog na tayo sa training nun for basketball competition" Dane addressed Kaze na kasama niyang varsity ng school.

"We will be performing a play for Valentine's Day so maybe rehearsals will take much of my time. What about you Kyra?"

Gabby diverted the question to me. I straighten my sitting position.

"Uhm, I still don't have a club so maybe I'll look for one. I really don't like meeting new people."

"We know that already. Bakit ba kasi ayaw mong sumali sa music club? Nangangalawang na yung talent mo sa drums and guitar, hindi mo naman ginagamit nang maayos"

Napaisip ako sa sinabi ni Kaze. Bakit ba hindi ako sunasali ng clubs? Last year, when I was a freshman, I really wanted to audition for the music club but I ended up joining nothing. Ang haba kasi ng pila before and ayaw ko maghintay. Besides, I play instruments because I love to, not because I need to. I don't like it when people tell me what to do.

But thinking of it, joining it now is not a bad idea. I should try at least once to know how it feels to make people hear my music. Should I?

{Author's Note:

Hello guys. Thank you sa mga nagbabasa. I just turned 18 last April 11. Sobrang saya ko na sa ilang nagbabasa 😅

And sa mga fans ng BL series jan, hello sa inyo. Hihi I can recommend or you can recommend to me.

Thank you guys}