Whispers

"let's stay as friends."

It hurts when somebody rejects you, and the thing they say is "Let's stay as a friends." or "Don't worry, we'll still be friends."

Do you understand how much that hurts exactly? Not only did you reject my feelings and not feel the same way. But you're asking me to be your friend, when in all reality, my feelings for you aren't going to leave. Their going to still be there and their going to be crushed.

I know I'm probably being selfish and a jerk. But I don't want to be your friend anymore if you don't feel the same way. I don't want to put myself in that position again. The position of hearing you talk about your new person you're with, or by how much you feel about a certain person. I don't want too.

How do you think I'm going to feel when you talk about other people that you like around me? I'm going to be so upset. I'm going to cry. I'm going to scream. I'm going to be so mad at myself for staying "friends" with you.

How do you think I'll feel when you're with somebody else? I'm going to be forcing myself to try to support you, but I'm not going to want too. I'm going to be so angry at that person and so angry with myself because they got the greatest person to fall for them, when I couldn't even do that. Do you know pathetic it is for me to even do this? It's so pathetic.

How do you think I'll feel when you hug me? Or tell me things that make me smile? I'll be in pain.

So please don't do this to me or to anyone. Please.

And if you do this to anyone, don't. It's only going to hurt them even more.