ao let's goo yesterday night i met a guy on Omegle, we it went nice for a while, i made few mistakes ...uhm so let's start w this, i updated my settings and set mine interest chatting, hello hye began he asked for age amd being despite 20 i told him im 19 nothing happened okay, then he asked ne are you any one of those horny type freak (yk omegle) so yeah little i was ( not much because i just wanted to talk w someone i was having v low day, fights w parents then online test school etx ) so yeah replied him "might be" and that was my biggest mistake
then we went ahead he replied w his age 18 and yeh i cleared my mind i wouldn't chat horny type w him even tho I don't know myself how to lol, he just turned 18 so that's why
then we talked about sumn i don't remember, i asked whether he's lonely or sumn and he denied , i asked i was :( he asked about it and i told him, then i guess i replied him w "it was nice talking to you" and he immediately asked whether i am going and i wasn't tho, i understood he wanted to talk and same me too, so we went w our chats ahead, he wanted to play game idk how he suggested truth and dare and i then agreed. we played asked some questions i asked about his personality type, he didn't know blah blah
then he needed to some work might be so he asked me would it okay if we share snap @ and talk there and we shared, he really wanted to talk w me about anything
then i got busy w sime work plus there was convos in ny class gc so i was checking them too, he idk why thought i might be diff person i understood him tho but .. anyways so i was feeling low, then you can't ne awake so late and i was sleeping w my grand mom so plus i had imp work to do next day, but he wanted to chat me so i agreed him to let extend for 15-30 mins we did idk what we talked about then he said good bye and i too ;( next day i woke up means today
i did breakfast, helped w household chores, did assignment and then i sent him hii
as i never used snap so i didn't what "your snap and chat will not be sent until xyz adds u as the friend" i took ss and asked my friend, she told me that it means xyz person had removed me from his friend list so..yeah i became sad but i thought might be he had uninstalled it or sumn so i sent him a long paragraph oh what i replied lemme copy here
"ah uhmm i guess you uninstalled snap or blocked me or sumn ..uhmm i just wanna know like even tho we talked a little only still i wanna ask you uhmm what impression i made upon you, (what kinda person /girl do i seem to you) don't take seriously tho the thing is...uhmm it's just im social anxious girl and do overthink a lot overanalyze alot uhm
so yeah idk will u see it or not .. it's okay if you don't answer ...well more okay actually (still being hypocrite im sending it, couldn't resist myself) "
and then i deleted it after few hour
i sent it because i came to conclusions he might think i wanted to leave him or not wanted to chat him but it wasn't, i was v tired and health wasn't good thi that's whh :(
then i sent him " heya hiw ya doing" and there's still no reply.
it's not like i am dying or sumn to talk w him i was just wanted to make some thibgs clear
anyway then today , we had a fight at home, big verbal fight at home and now its 9:43 om and since 12 pm i haven't eaten anything because we're asked to not to :((( i feel so low so heart broked why kife is so cruel why every worst thing come together i cant help anymore I can't do it anymore i hate myself i hate myself for being this week i hate :(( why does this happening to me i hate it i hate god
