Book of randomness

Poem!!

So here is! The other poem!! I tried, this one is super long, and I actually kind like it.....not really but I tried!
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I always thought love at first sight was a lie...
But when my brown eyes that held many secrets untold laid eyes on you, it was like Cupid's arrow pierced my heart, the feeling of butterflies fluttering in my stomach

And to top it off you where in my classes,
I was happy but...you never noticed me
Even if you did, what did you think of me?

Now thinking about it, my silly little crush
On you is foolish, so foolish I laugh at myself
In pity

How can he ever love me?
Someone as great as he,
Love me? 'Tis but a joke

No matter how much I dream for it,
At last it's just a dream, why would someone as handsome as him, fall for someone like me?
Someone with one to many problems,
Someone way to damaged and broken beyond repair

No one wants someone broken, they want someone perfect and beautiful, all the categories that don't match me, I just wish someone could pull me
Out of me deep, deep, deep, everlasting despair

Please help! I'm drowning in the darkness of despair!
Can no one hear me! I'm screaming! But I keep sinking and sinking, there isn't anything I can hold onto, I can't get a grip but I don't want to let him go!

Why can't I see?
Why can't I see in this darkness?
This everlasting darkness!
The trembling fear is more than I can take
when I'm up against this darkness in my heart

I try and try to get your attention
Only to learn that you...already had
A significant other, someone to love...

I stand with my heart cracking and breaking
In pieces as they fall and shatter to the ground
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts so much.....

Why can't I love? Why can't anyone love me?
Why does it hurt? It hurts....

I'm at the bottom of the darkness now,
It's so cold, and dark, It's so lonely,
yet fitting for me..

I wonder when I will find my significant other
Or if I will find someone at all....

So this is my final goodnight as the
Moonlight kisses my skin with its light
And I sit on this bridge writing this poem

Goodnight..

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I will admit this one is kinda dark but I still am really proud of it! Also there's many things that are being symbolized in this poem! Comment what you think they are!!