decisions - jikook

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Jimin was tired. He was slowly giving up on Jeongguk, though he still had a little bit left to stay on him.

He knew he shouldn't stick to him but he couldn't help it. It felt like he was in a garden of thorns, constantly he was hurt.

"Is it worth it, Jimin?" Taehyung asked. Taehyung was Jimin's childhood best friend. He knew he could trust him.

"I don't know.. Everything is getting worse. I cry everyday, I give everything up, lose weight, buy him things... just to be perfect for him. But i get nothing in return. not even a thank you..." Jimin sighed, "I wish I was perfect."

Taehyung knew he was perfect.

"Don't give yourself up for another boy. it obviously isn't worth it, you know." Taehyung told Jimin.

Jimin stared outside his window. The moon shined brightly into his face.

"Jimin, i have to go, grandmother needs me. I'm sorry love."

Jimin nodded his head and just stared outside. He heard his door shut softly and he began to cry quietly until he knew Tae was gone. His sobs startled his cat who was on his lap.

He sat the cat down and stood up in front of mirror. He grabbed the fat on his arms, thighs and cheeks.

"Why..." he cried, "Why me.."

His head hurt from the amount of tears coming out. He grabbed his depression pills and swallowed more then seven.

And he waited.. waited for the time to come. Jimin grabbed his phone and messaged Jeongguk.

mochibaby: im sorry for everything. its all over now.
10:34 p.m.
sent

he knew jeongguk wasn't going to respond. what was even the point of texting him?

his brain went blank and started spinning. he knew what was happening. he cried even harder.

"I don't want this please take it back please. i don't want to die please fucking someone help!" he yelled.

everything was black..

jeonjeongguk: where are you.
10:40 p.m.
sent

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