The panic attacks
The sweaty tshirts
The way your heart beats inside your throat
The cramping stomach
The impending doom
The way your breath seems to stop
The fear is insane
The reality becomes confusing
The confusion feeding anxiety
The fear of dying
The tiredness that starts to set in
The realization
The disappointment in yourself
The way you secretly hate yourself
The sadness that always worsens
The endlessness of it all
Repeat
