The Girl Who Self Harmed

Who Saved Me

Lia's POV

I woke up in a hospital bed with needles in my arm. I saw my brother walk in saying hey sleepy head how you feeling? What happened? Where am I? Your in the hospital you passed out at the police station and almost hit your head falling. Hey I have good news your not pregnant and you were never pregnant. Okay good. I saw this very attractive young guy walk in the room. Who are you? I was there when you were falling I caught you. Oh really? Who are you? I'm Jackson. I go to your school I work in the police station. What position? Just a regular cop. Oh so are you in any of my classes. I'm in a few of your classes. Hey I'm sorry what your going through. You shouldn't have to go through this. Thank you. The nurse came in saying I'm free to go. I walked out with Jackson. Hey do you want to go get some coffee? I laughed. Sure I could use some coffee. We went to the coffee shop across the street. We got to know each other. He ordered a plain black coffee and I just laughed. What's so funny? Oh nothing I laughed under my breath. It was my turn to order. I got a plain black coffee with some Caramel creamer added to it with 3 sugars. He just looked at me and smiled. I smiled at him and we both walked outside and sat on an empty bench. We talked for hours while I felt eyes on me. I brushed it off because I felt safe with Jackson. My brother called me saying he's around the corner in his car. I just told him a few more minutes and hung up. We talked and laughed for a few more minutes until my brother pulled up and honked nearly almost making me drop my cup. I glared at him and he laughed. I said goodbye to Jackson. And went to turn around till he took my hand. Lia can I get your number. I smiled and took his phone and put my number in. I waved and walked towards the car and some old guy bumped into me. I felt a small poke which made me feel a little bit uneasy. I stopped in my tracks and looked up at that dude feeling pissed off cause I was having a good time till this dude ruined my mood. I walked towards the dude and yelled out hey what the hell is your problem. He laughed and turned around seeing it was Damians dad. I then stepped back fast with Jackson walking to me. Is that your new guy Lia. Before I can talk he told me to tell him that it's okay don't come here please. So I did what he told me to do. He stopped and glared at the guy. I smiled at Jackson. Lia I have eyes everywhere. Watching your brother and now that Jackson is in your life eyes are on him now. Be carful letting people in your life. You don't want them to get hurt. What do you want. To get Damian out of Jail. You have to face your mistakes Lia. Go get him out right now. And your cop friend can help you. If you don't get him out tonight I will have you killed. What did you poke me with? A tracker. Times are ticking don't run out of time. You know where to find me. He then drove off. I watched him drive off until I can't see him. I looked around slowly eyeing everyone doing their normal things they do with some people looking at me. I was having a panic attack and I felt arms around me. I fell to the ground and came back into reality. Jackson hugged me and my brother looked at me asking me what's wrong. I just opened my mouth and couldn't say anything. I couldn't breathe. All I can do was stare out into the road. Jackson snapped at me saying look at me, look at me. I looked up st his eyes while he was taking a deep breath on and out. I started tearing up and gasped for air. I breathed in and out and started telling both of them what just happened and who that guy was. Guys I'm scared I started crying. Jackson I need help I need to get him out. I can help you with that. But what happens after that. You'll just have to trust me. I can't promise that it will be the safest thing for me but I can handle Damian. We have to go now. We went to the station and Jackson told us to stay by the front desk. I started tearing up. Ace are you mad at me? No why would I be mad at you. Because I got you into my mess Ace. Hey I don't care I'm here for you and I will always be there for you through anything. I have to act like I am in love with Damian to get on his good side and so he can change. Tell Jackson that as soon as he isn't by Damian and I and I will have my phone on me at all costs when I can. We sat there for a good hour until I can hear cussing. I looked up with tears and I slowly walked to Damian. I stopped in front of him and looked at him with tears. Jackson left us alone with a frown. He walked away with Ace following him to tell him what's going on right now. But I knew it wasn't fake. I I I... I stuttered. Then stopped talking. I sat down on the seat and sighed. He sat next to me. It wasn't true. He looked at me and I went on. None of it was true when I was getting all angry at you. I know. You know how I know? How. The way you held my hand in the car never letting it go looking all sad and nervous. While we were walking to the building you were glued to me thinking it was the last time you would ever see me. Because I thought it was. I looked down. L I wasn't lying either. You are changing me for the better and I mean it. I know Damian. The reason I know is because when we were at your house and I went on top of you you called me L and your eyes changed when I was reminding you of what you taught me to protect myself from you. I guess your right. I looked at my phone it was 11:59 shit! Call your dad why he said if I don't get you out before midnight he's sending someone to kill me. Okay. He called his dad saying that he's out and to not to send someone to kill me. Good now bring her here. Dad... he got cut off bring her here now. Yes dad. We have to go back. Damian. I just got you back I don't want to lose you again. He's going to for sure kill me or hurt me and I don't want that. But I realized. He has people watching me he said he'll kill my family. Fine but I'm telling my brother and Jackson. That's fine don't be long I'll be right here. I walked back to Ace and Jackson. Jackson came to me and said Ace told me. I'm not mad. Jackson I think I'm still in love with him. I started crying. But I don't want to I whispered to him. I need someone to get me out of this mess I held his hand tightly. He let go of my hand and hugged me. I staid in silence in his arms feeling safe.  I then said I have to go with him. It might not be safe but I'll be back soon I promise. Don't know how but I will. I went to hug Ace. He knew what I was going to say. Do what you have to do to come back and be safe Lia. I'll see you soon. He hugged me. I'll be back soon. I walked out crying. Damian walked to me and held my hand. I know it's bad but I miss this. I miss his good side. We drove off to his house. I started crying more as we were getting closer. He held my hand saying I won't let him hurt you not again. Damian your a different person when your around your dad. And I'm scared of that side of you. Here take my pocket knifes. I hid one in my bra and pocket. I saw his dad sitting on the deck. I looked over at Damian with a tear rolling down my face. He wiped it off and kissed my lips. His dad started to smile. I couldn't tell if that was his evil smile or his natural smile I missed. I got out and closed the door. I felt eyes on me I then started to walk but then my legs were shaking. Damian came towards me so I backed away from him in fear. Hey it's okay. No it's not no it's not I want to go back home. Not yet we have to go to my dad and get on his good side so we don't have people going after your family. Promise I can go back. I promise. I walked passed his dad who was talking to me. I completely ignored him. His dad held him back to talk to him so I just sat on the couch. All I heard was Damian yelling at him. He then came in and slammed the door. He sat next to me. What was that all about? It's nothing don't worry about it. Well is my family going to be okay? Yes. He was going to say something else but the door bursts open with this girl. The first thing she said was who's this baby? I stood up and yelled baby?! Damian started walking to me. No stop get your hands off of me. Lia I can explain. You don't have to explain anything Damian. Just never mind for everything I was about to say. Have fun with her. I walked out the house and the dad just laughed. You don't have to worry about me anymore looks like she's a much more of a handful. I'm so stupid. She probably doesn't get beat up or kicked or ever felt the sharpness of the knife. I walked passed his dad and he said. So you saw his girlfriend? I didn't want to say anything so I just walked away. But he said. Damian doesn't love you like he used to Lia. Your nothing to him. I don't know what I was thinking for what I was about to do but I was so angry. I walked up to him and pointed at him and yelled. FUCK YOU! And punched his face and he just got angry. I just ignored him and I went to his car and tried looking for his stash of alcohol. Just to have a drink. I picked up a big bottle of whiskey. I sat down in the drivers seat and closed my eyes and took a drink. His dad came to the window and started to bang on the car telling me to get out. I made sure the doors were locked and yelled at him. You have that bitch to worry about now not me! I sat and drank for about 30 minutes. I heard Damians voice. He walked to the car and went to open the door finding it being locked. I laughed. He had a spare key in his pocket. He unlocked the door and opened the door before I could lock it again. I moved to the passenger seat to get away from him but I fell half way. Took me a second to get over but he was just watching me struggle. I took another drink. He tried taking the bottle away but I moved my hand towards me quickly. He told me to get out to talk. Oh is that all we're doing now? Is just talking I laughed. How much did you have to drink? This is my second bottle. Lia come on this isn't you. Oh and me wanting to be with someone who has a girlfriend is? No that's not me. I opened the door shedding a tear. I started walking away. He grabbed my waist and pulled me to him. Lia I told her to go. That doesn't mean anything. Your still dating her. I bet she never gets beat up by your dad. Better yet I bet you don't cut her like you do to me right? Because you don't love me like you used too. I'm nothing to you anymore. That's why you do all these hurtful things to me and not her. I still love you and you mean everything to me L. Oh don't call me that! You don't get to call me that if it's so easy to hurt me. You can't hurt her but you hurt me. That's not love Damian. Lia come back and we can talk. No you said I can go home. I'm not sleeping here ever again. Cause every night I spent here your dad would drag me out of the bed with his hand over my mouth so I won't wake you up and then he'll beat me up. I'd have bruises everywhere Damian. I also just punched him. So no I'm not staying here. So call your girl to let her come back because I'm done. Done with loving you, done with trying to get you back, I'm just done with everything that has to deal with you now let me go. I'll lock my door we won't do anything I'll just let you sleep. I'm not letting you go home this late at night like this. I just walked back to the house drinking the bottle. I tripped on the stairs and he caught me. He grabbed the bottle and put the Whiskey on the counter and helped me up stairs in bed. I just sat on the ground on the top of the stairs. He laughed and I said carry me with my hands up towards him. He carried me. Remember when I was drunk a long time ago and you carried me like this and you took care of me all night. How could I forget. He set me down on the bed and locked the door so his dad can't take me away. It's hot in here. I started to take my shirt off and my pants and threw it at Damian. He looked over at me. Lia. We aren't doing anything not when your like this. But I want kisses. I pouted. He came into bed and told me to come here. I cuddled on top of him and snuggled into his shirt. He kissed my forehead. I looked up at him and smiled. I went to kiss him but he turned his face to where I kissed his cheek. Damian I wined. Not when your like this. I started to roll off of him but he stopped me and said don't be like that. I just laid there and didn't say anything. I Fell asleep and so did he. I woke up 2 hours later and quietly got up. I got dressed took my phone. Went down stairs and found the Whiskey. I put my shoes on and started walking not knowing where I'm going. I  stopped to take a few drinks. I saw a bridge. As I got closer to it. I saw it was the bridge I sat on all the time when I was dating Damian. Or when I had to be alone or just a calming spot to be at. I sat on the edge on the cement thick blocks drinking my whiskey. I got my phone out to call Jackson.