The Girl Who Self Harmed

He's At My House

Lia's POV
I woke up to Ace getting out of bed. Your not going to school today. Okay I smiled. I laid back down. Even though your not going to school you have to get up cause I know your going to stay in your pajamas all day. Damn you know me so well. I got up and went into the shower. I got out and got dressed into high waisted shorts and a crop top.  I put makeup on. I walked down stairs. I saw Ace drinking a smoothie. I walked past him and got myself a smoothie. I sat at the couch. I turned on the TV. Soon Ace went to me and hugged me. I'm going to school Bye! Bye! As soon as he left I put scary movies on. I watched for a few hours more. I heard the door knock. I jumped up. I was so paranoid of the scary movies I was watching. I walked to the door. I opened it to see Damian. I screamed. I was going to close the door. But as I was shutting it he pushed the door open. Okay this is more scary then the movies I was watching. He started to laugh and then frown at me saying, Oh come on baby girl why do you have to do this to me? I want you out of my house! He stepped inside my house more. So this is the place you moved to? He stepped closer to me. I ran up the stairs. He was right behind me. I ran into my room but he stopped me as I was heading towards my bathroom. He turned me around to face him. He pulled me towards the bed. Lia. What! I'm sorry what I did. Damian you cheated on me. Why? Babe I was drunk. No you weren't. Please babe trust me. He started to close the gap between us. I can't do anything other wise he'll hurt me. I'm scared to be abused again. He laid me down. He didn't ask anything. I was scared to say anything. He took something out of his pocket. I just closed my eyes. Damn. What? My condom broke. I didn't say anything. I just laid there closing my eyes. I felt both my shorts and underwear slip down my legs and onto the floor. I felt pressure. I arched my back. I felt the pleasure. That went on for 30 minutes. All I can do was lay there in shock. He put his underwear and pants back on. He went up to me. Hey don't tell anyone this. Not even your brother. But I tell Ace everything. WELL YOU CAN'T TELL HIM THIS ONE! You know I will though. He smacked my face! LIA! I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU TELL ANYONE I'LL KILL YOU! But I'll tell Ace and no one else okay. He smacked me again. He left me alone. He walked out of the house. I couldn't move. I checked my phone for the time. It was 3:30. Ace should be here in a few seconds. I heard the door open. I put the blanket over me and started crying thinking it was Damian. I heard running which made me cry even louder. Lia! What's wrong? He saw all of my clothes on the floor. He lifted my blanket up a little to see me not wearing a bra or shirt. He covered me again. He sat on my bed. Lia. Who did this? Who do you think? That son of a bitch! He looked around my room not knowing what to do. He came a cross an open unused condom. He picked it up. Tell me what happened Lia. He had sex with me. I couldn't do anything. Or else he would hurt me. Lia. That's rape! I know. I know I said with my voice cracking as like I've been screaming for so long. And without a condom! I thought he had another one! No look it's opened but it's not broken Lia. I started crying. W what do I do? Right now you need to tell Mom and dad when they come home. I'll call them home. He stepped out of the room. My whole life I wanted to be a mom but this early in my life? I'm 22 and the reasoning how I'd be pregnant is not what I want. He came back in to see me still in bed. Lia, you should go in the shower. Okay. He walked out of my room. I went to the bathroom and turned on the hot shower. I took off my bandages and stripped. I walked into the shower as the hot water reached my thighs it stung. I ignored the pain. I washed my hair and body. I shave my legs and arm pits. I washed the razor and cutted my thighs again. I then got out of the shower and put a bandage on my thigh. I then put a towel around my body. I walked to my room. I put a pair of black underwear and bra on. I put a T-shirt and jeans on. I saw the condom. I hid it under my bed as I heard my door  open. My mom and dad came in. My mom started crying. Mom whats wrong? My brother came in after them and sat on my bed. Did this really happen to you? What do you mean what happened? Did he really rape you Lia? No what are you talking about? Ace told us. He must of heard wrong no one was over. I was just watching a scary movie. I started talking gibberish. Oh all right sweet heart. We'll talk to you later. Okay bye mom and dad. Ace shut the door. Why didn't you tell them! I can't. They'll treat me differently! Lia he raped you. I have to move on from it. It's done. Lia? What's gotten into you. He said if I told anyone he threatened to kill me. Lia we need to go to the station. No we don't. I'm not going anywhere. Lia now! Don't make me ask again. Fine. I stood up and we both walked to his car. He started the car the thoughts came back. Ace please don't make me go tell them. Lia we are already in the car. He said he'll kill me! Remember he found out where we lived!  He knows when your gone! Lia we have to. It's going to end. I'm not saying anything you don't have to Lia. W what do you mean? He stopped the car and walked into to station with me fast walking behind him worried what he's about to do. He asked the guy he needs to talk to someone. He walked back. Ace! What are you doing! It's for your own good. You'll be safe now. No no no. I ran to the door but cops blocked it. I took out my pepper spray and said I'm sorry but I don't want to die like this. I started crying. I pepper sprayed them. As soon as that happens the alarms came on and Ace ran out to see if I was okay. I looked at him and yelled I don't want to die I'm to young well I mean to be killed. I ran out knowing his parents are getting the call and he's on the road searching for me. I ran and thought wait! I stopped and started running back but as soon as I saw my brother opening the door someone grabbed me. The last thing I saw was cop cars behind me. I was in someone's lap and it was Damian. Please don't hurt me I started bawling my eyes out crying. Don't kill me. Baby I won't kill you. I'm just going to have some fun. He took out a pocket knife. I cried getting off of him falling on the floor of the van. I was trapped. Even if I tired getting up he could stab me. So I just sat there letting him slowly cut my stomach lightly and my arms. I cried as the pain felt right he put his pocket knife away and told me to not move. A few more hours the van stopped and I was pushed out the door. I started running away. I heard someone yell get her! And Damian caught me. He picked me up and took me to the living room. Get that filthy worthless piece of shit away from me the dad said. Jack I thought you liked me. Yeah not now. Damian dragged me up stairs. Oh and teach her a better lesson. He dragged me by the collar and I was choking for a few moments until he let go of me in a room. I ran to the bed coughing. He took out his pocket knife and went to the edge of the bed. The knife was in front of my stomach. I put my hand over his hand with the pocket knife lightly. Do it I said looking up into his eyes. Tears went down my cheeks. His eyes seemed lost and innocent. But then his eyes went dark. He got ready to stab me. I swatted the knife out of his hand and sat on him on the bed holding his arms firmly on the bed. Guess who taught me that. He didn't say anything. And this I twirled him around bending his arm behind his back with him moaning in pain. I went up to his ear hoping he'll come back good. You taught me this so I can defend myself from you Damian. Please remember. Get the fuck off of me L! I twirled him around again and went to his lips and lightly kissed him as soon as he tried kissing back I moved back putting my finger over his lip. No Damian. You kidnapped me. But you know I was. So you wanted me to find you. Not true. But it is. Shut up. Oh kiss me already Lia. I laid on his stomach and kissed him. This time not moving when he kissed me back. He put his arms around my back rubbing my back. He lightly squeezed my butt. Damian. Please let me go and we'll be together. I miss you. A few days here okay? I told them my goal was for us to be together so I'll tell them that. Okay. But I don't know if I still have to punish you. I started crying. I screamed. NOOOOOO!!! I tried getting up but he gripped my back so I couldn't leave. No I can't be tortured! Why not. I can't tell you. I heard a knock on the door. I immediately hugged him and shook in his arms. I saw his dad. Hey it's time for me to teach you a lesson. I cried and looked at Damian. I whispered. Damian please I had a tear going down. We both got up and he took me down stairs their dad punched my face and cut my stomach. He kicked me down. No!!!! Stop hurting me! This is to funny. He came closer. He started to kick me again I screamed out I'm pregnant! He didn't stop but Damian stopped him leave us dad. He walked away. Lia? It's true. I might be pregnant. So no more hurting me I have to leave we have to leave please Damian. You know they'll keep hurting me and our baby will end up dead. We're leaving now. Take me to the station. I won't let them take you away okay. We went to the car and drove to the station. I held his hand and squeezed it. Damian I promise I won't let them take you away. We walked out of the car and walked to the door. I hugged him tightly knowing what I'm going to do. We were in the hallway and I let his hand go so he was a little bit ahead of me and I motioned to the cops to Damian. Damian. He turned around and he now knew he was lead into a trap. L? I was changing. You were changing me babe. I had to act like I full on hated him and it wasn't the truth. I missed how we were. He just has a bad past that changed a huge part of him. Oh cut the crap you were going to wait till our baby was born and kill him or her. I heard my parents behind all the cops. Your pregnant? Mom I can explain. Explain please. I lied. He did rape me I didn't tell you this because I didn't want you to treat me differently. Your still our baby nothings going to change. I know I'm sorry I didn't tell you and yes I might be he didn't use a condom. I want an abortion because I'm not ready to have a kid but I don't want to at the same time. Think on it. I'll talk with Ace. I heard Damian call my name. I turned around seeing him being taken away. I have to fight the erge to not go after him. I saw Ace and I ran to him and hugged him. I cried. I'm sorry Ace I'm sorry I ran out I'm sorry I hurt the cops I'm sorry I didn't tell mom and dad I'm sorry for being depressed I'm sorry for cutting. I started breathing heavy. I started getting dizzy. I'm scared I said while falling toward the ground. I heard someone run to catch me from behind and I fell into the persons arms and blacked out.