Insecurely Numb

4

Xe'ona Walker: Detroit, MI

"Ya'll we gone need some more weed." It was later that week and the girls had decided to stay over at my place.
I was hoping the dispute we had earlier in the week would help get us back to where we used to be and thought some bonding time might help.

"We really are." Lexii was under the creme colored plush throw, watching some random show.

"I guess I'll text Shoota." I pulled out my phone.

Carmen shot me a look. "You ready to call him ain't you?"

I rolled my eyes, sighing. "Giirl..that's who I've been shopping with the past two weeks, Rio shit been trash lately!"

"Scar can pull up." She cut me off, grabbing her phone to call him.

Why was she so against me calling Shoota? I brushed it off just focusing on having a good night.

When Carmen didn't get an answer she threw her phone on the couch, sighing loudly. "I swear he get on my nerves." I could tell she was annoyed. "Always fucking ignoring me...I get sick of that shit like fuck is he even doing?"

"Girl fuck him, we'll give our money to the next weed man fuck he thought? don't let him get you out yo bag." Lexii calmed her down. "You know his ham ass probably downtown at the MGM gambling with his addict ass."

I burst out dying. I was high but that shit was funny because Scar really did have a gambling problem. He had gotten into many fights on the street over dice games and suspended from the Casino because of his constant verbal and physical altercations. Like it was serious, everyday at some point Scar made his way to gamble.

Carmen waved her off. "Call Aaron...or Rio shit might be back right."

"Why not just call Shoota knowing he gone straight pull up and he keep gas?" Lexii was just as curious as I was.

"Like you can call him and go out there Carmen.. what's the big deal?" I raised my eyebrow.

She was acting too weird about a nigga..
  "Ain't nothing the fuck the deal, I'll call him right now.." she dialed Shoota up.
Just like we suspected he was on his way immediately.

I shook my head.

"See now bitch was that so hard?" Lexii asked in a sarcastic tone.

The three of us laughed and brushed that shit off, Carmen knew she had just did too much.

Sending Carmen outside to get the weed, me and Lexii sat listening to the TV.

"You know why yo cousin acting like that right?" Lexii asked looking at me.
  I shook my head.
"Word around the East is Shoota's been asking bout you." She always had the tea.

"Asking about me?" I was shocked. I wasn't blind, I saw he flirted with me but I figured that's what he did to all female clientele. "Asking bout me like how?"

  "Tryna see if people know you or of you." She leaned forward. "I think he likes you. He tryna get a feel of if you be out here or not, that's what hood niggas do." She rolled her eyes smirking. "Lucky for you, you're a good girl. See me on the other hand, I got a record out here that's why I'm aiming high like for the pros..I done fucked with too many of the top street niggas round the way."

I laughed, her ass was a mess. "But didn't he fuck with Carmen?"

Just then the door swung open with Carmen walking in and Shoota waltzing in behind her.

Carmen placed the seven grams on the table, taking her place back on the couch next to Lex. "He just insisted on saying hi."

Lexii shot me a look at the same time I looked over at her. I compressed my smile as a text from her popped up.