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I have had depression since I was about 7 years old.

When I was 7, I was weight shamed by my uncle, his daughters, his wife, and my mom. It continued on until I was 10, when I confronted them and told them to stop being so superficial.

I had spent multiple days crying because I felt bad for my other cousin who was also being weight shamed, and was constantly yelled at by his father. He only found happiness in the games he played and being around his friends. He also has depression.

When I told them I felt bad for him and myself, they said I was just being over dramatic and just wanted to get them to feel bad for me and get me things.

So now I just hide everything from everyone. Im just made up of fake smiles and laughs on ths outside.

Recently I figured out I was a victim of almost rape/incest.

My uncle, its always the uncles, the father who always yells at his son.

Whenever I hug him he either sniffs my hair and neck, or licks my neck.

I always thought it was a bit awkward as he also spoiled me.

He has coronavirus now.

I dont know if I should be happy or sad.

I told my snap groupchat and the one girl who responded said her life sucks more

I-

My mother hates me. Shes only said it once but I know she would say it straight to my face if she could.

She always calls me a piece of shit, sometimes behind my back, even though I always hear her. Other times she says it straight to my face.

If she didnt want me then why didnt she just give me to my dad, who probably cares about me less, vut at least he wouldnt call me a piece of shit at 3 years old.

And if she didnt give me to him, then just put me up for adoption, im the bastard child of the family, ny dad is from a completely different country than the rest if my family, and nobody even likes me.

The only talent I have is drawing, and I cant even do that well.

The woman who takes care of me, my "mom", I refuse to call her that because clearly she doesnt want to be, only keeps me because she knows I can make her money in the future.

I was always an honors child, always first, but lately my grades have gone lower because ive been distracted.
I cant focus on anything lately and I dont feel like doing anything.