Turning Over a New Leaf

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Jordan Taylor
Monday, January 1
2020
Age: 26
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Lord please, I don't know what I've done wrong but please just let this test come back positive for me and my marriage.

I prayed silently sitting on the toilet waiting to lift the box off my pregnancy test.

It's been 2 minutes, I thought maybe Dylon would be home to go through this with me but I guess he chose to sit this one out.

This is our 4th time trying. Once 3 minutes hit, I removed the box from over the pregnancy test.

I eased it over hoping for good news. The test read not pregnant.

Why me the same disappointment over and over I'm always good to you god and do everything by you why won't you give me a child.

God dylon is gonna be pissed, lemme go start dinner.

I seasoned the meat and started thinking.

Dylon and I met when we where twenty a lot of people would say we moved fast since we got married at the ages of 21.

We've been married for a good 5 years.

I will say one thing that's kinda of negative when getting married so young is it does not give you the opportunity to live life and just go have fun especially if you have a husband like mines.

He restricted me from a lot of things but I chose to give them up for the sake of our marriage.

|1 hour later|

"Hey baby you got dinner ready." He said walking in laying his coat on the back of the couch.

"Uh yeah I made vegan lasagna and baked chicken what do you want to drink." I said standing in the fridge.

He walked up behind me kissing my neck, placing his hands on my stomach.

"Just gimme some green tea baby." I nodded and grabbed the judge filling his glass up.

I opened our mini wine refrigerator and poured some in my glass.

I carried both the drinks to the table and sat down and began eating my food.

"How was work baby." I asked looking up at him.

"One of the boys tore his ACL so I had to deal with that but other than that it was the usual just training people to get better."

I was proud of my man he was a trainer for professional athletics he loved his job.

"That's good." I said picking up my glass drinking from it.

"How did today go baby, I tired calling you to hear the new's but you ain't pick up."

"Yeah um about that.....-

"No baby again... wow what the fuck is wrong with you, you just can't have my baby can you....well Jordan let me tell you if you can't somebody else will."

I stopped eating and thought what fuck, I'm always the one getting blamed what if it ain't me and it's you who don't know how to use your dick.

"What did you just say to me." He said through clinched teeth.

Oh my lord did I say that out loud. Can't take it back now.