I want so badly to run into your arms
And tell you the story of how and what happened that night
I want so badly to tell you and for you to hold me tight and tell me it will all
be all right
I want so badly to cry on your shoulder as you pet my head and think of anything you can do to make me feel better
I want so badly to be open and honest with you knowing you won't judge
Because that's how we used to be
And I loved every second of it
Anytime I was sad you would be the first to know
Or if something was wrong you were the one I would call to
You were the one I would yearn for
And some how when you arrived I immediately felt a
rush of calm
The feeling of safety
would come rushing back into my vains once again
feeling like I belonged some place in this sad dreadful world
Holding your hand was like having superpowers it lit me up and made me feel like anything was possible as long as you were by my side
Now I wish I never said I loved you
And now I wish I had not spend most nights thinking of ways to make you love yourself more
Because most of the time you don't act like you love me
And you don't seem to care how I view myself
Or the hate and contempt I seem to find myself when I look in the mirror
It's like your a stranger who knows all my secrets and yet finds ways to break my heart in pieces
I ask myself
"Why do I still care for you "
And can never seem to find a suitable answer that does not bring a million more questions to the table
I feel like I am under her control
Because no matter what kind of pain you cause me
I still want you
And I can't seem to leave you or even find the right words to get you to leave me
And that hurts to say because I do still care for you
-A soulmate who wasn't meant to be
YOU ARE READING
She's Not The Same
PoetryTo You The one who at one point meant the universe to me I tell the unsaid mystery of my emotions and thoughts The thoughts I have blotted down on blank sheets of paper So after all these years you can finally understand a percentage of the pain yo...
