Thinking back on the past year I was wondering why I wanted to do this I didn't have a bad life I had a grate life I had a mom and a dad and a brother and another brother that past away when he was born. No one made fun of me anymore they did when I was younger but I have started to be Friends with the good crowd. I used to hang with the ones who would make fun of me and I wont say that it didn't hurt when they said things and hurt me. I had three best friends. tell my most best friend Gabrielle and I got in thei huge argument about a guy who was 45 years old and she was 16 she told me that he loved her and she loved him until one day at school we had a presentation on online predictors. At first when I found out about him I thought hey he's nice ill let her have some fun and besides he lives in Alaska why would he come all the way to Florida to see her. But the night before the presentation he sent us two tickets to a concert and of course we went and the next day I confronted her and told her I didn't think she should see him anymore we stoped talking for 4 months. Gabrielle and I were like sister we were inseparable. When we finally started to forgive each other I learned some devastating news that while we were fighting he had threatened to kill me and her family if she didn't sleep with him. I didn't find it out from her tho I found out through the county sheriff's face book page by my brother while we were at the movies could you imagine a crazy girl start screaming and crying on a Disney movie when something happy happened lets just say I went a little sycophantic and the cops were called and I was taken to the hospital for my own protection against my self. After a week of being the hospital because I keep having mental brake downs and trying to bite people. I bite people when I mad and scared what can I say. Anyway my mom told Gabrielle that she need to meet me and my now therapist that I go see now twice a week. So that we were in a safe zone were we can talk and yell and cry with out and actual harm done to me or Gabrielle. When she finally arrives at the session I can look at her all I do is sobb into my hand I was mad that she did it I was mad that I had pushed her so far away from me that she couldn't talk to me and tell me ahe was threatened I wanted to kill my self (first of many times ) I told he I was so sorry and she was so confused yet not at the same time I knew she knows in talking about the fight but dosent know that im saying sorry for not being there for her I was supposed to protect her I was supposed to be her older sister and all I did was feeling her to the wolves. And I told her that I was sorry for everything. And we hugged I thought the session was over but was I wrong she turned to me therapist who was watching us to make sure that we didn't hurtn one another but I knew she was just watching me incaas I tryed to bit her. Gabrielle asked if my theripist could leave leave room for ten minutes she was worried but I told her I would be good and not hurt her she finally left me and Gabrielle alone in the room I was concerned why she wanted my theripist to leave but that all turned to shock when I looked over at Gabrielle and saw her hand on her stomach and I noticed it was bigger then she would have let it have and I looked up into hrr eyes they were filled with sadness sand being scared to death. And all the sudden bith myself and her let the flowers gates open and I cradled her in my arms like I had for so many year. My best friend was carried a baby from a rape attack. Its not bad enough that when she was in the mom her mom did drugs and smoked and got drunk thats bad enough but then her mom left her in a hotel for ever leaving her t be found by that maids and then being raised by her grandma who would send all her money on her anime and leave Gabrielle hunger an alone until she met me I was three and she was two I was her saviors and the person who couldn't help in the end because she didnt trust me anymore. This story is not real none of these thing are true just ro clarify
