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Who Says You Don't Deserve To Feel The Way You Do?

I know that many of you think you're alone. By the way, I'm sorry I didn't update this in a long time. I've been really busy. Like REALLY busy. But anyway, you're not alone. There are people exactly like you. And they might just have it worse than you. It makes you feel selfish to know that fact, right? Well, just because they might have it worse than you, doesn't mean you don't deserve to feel the way you do. Everyone feels bad sometimes, but you have it REALLY bad. It makes you feel like dying.

I know some of you have parents that say things like, "Why are you crying? You have nothing to cry for. You should be grateful for what you have." Well, parents, it's not that we're not grateful, it's just that we are human. We are made to feel emotions. People can't just expect us to be overly happy all the time unless we have some kind of mental disorder (I know some people might say depression and anxiety are mental disorders; keep in mind that that wasn't scientifically proven). I speak from experience. And who knows? Maybe shit got dealt to us that you never saw/don't know about and we're too scared to tell you. It's always the case. Most parents don't know that their children are depressed or anything. My whole family doesn't know about me and I prefer them not to know. Some will be there for me, others will just make it worse.

But I'm not saying that you shouldn't tell your parents or family. Tell a family member that you completely trust and they can help you work it out. But if you don't know how your family will react or more like they seem like they wouldn't be accepting of these feelings and will just lash out, my advice is to not tell them but don't bottle it up either. Tell someone you trust. And if you're afraid of becoming a burden or something like that, go to someone who doesn't see it that way at all. Come to me even. I don't see people and their problems as burdens at all. I see them as a golden opportunity. To find answers to things others have been trying hard to figure out as well as finding answers to my own problems as well. Cool, right? My point is, you shouldn't have to deal with this alone. No one should. That's why they invented therapy :3.

But anyway, back to the topic. There are a few people who will say that you don't deserve to feel the way you do and that is an utter lie. You have every right. They don't know what's going on in your life or your head so they have no right to say that you can't feel the way you do. It's just like people saying that 5 year olds can't be sad about a broken toy. Well, news flash, 5 YEAR OLDS CAN HAVE DEPRESSION! A lot of people won't believe me when I say this but it's true.

No matter how old you are, you can be depressed. Even if you're 5 years old. Whether it's abuse or bullying, you can end up that way. I'm very sure anxiety is more common than depression but I don't really know. Anyway, in my country a really long time ago, 25% of deaths were from suicide. And some were made by 7 year olds. They made a whole video on interviewing the depressed and many people just wanted to die. They explained how they felt and what happened to them so that people could finally understand how big of a deal depression is and have a better idea of what it's about. But sadly, that video was forgotten and some people don't even know that depression and anxiety exist. I'm not gonna give you the video cause that could reveal my location. And knowing that maybe some crazy ass rapist or stalker could be reading this doesn't make it any better (-_-°')

So you see? No one has the right to tell you to cover up your emotions in paint and make up or a mask. Just be yourself and if someone has a problem with that, tell them to piss off. No one can strip you of your right to be human. Not even your own family. If I think about it, it's almost like coming out of the closet. But I'm not gonna get into that. I might be pansexual but that doesn't mean I already came out to my family. I'm still waiting till something forces me in that hole. If I don't have to tell them, I won't :3 
Please don't copy me (•_•°')

I hope this made you feel better. Come to me if there's anything you need! A friend, a listener, anything. I'll be here. Feel free to suggest something you want me to talk about in the comments. I'll tag you in the chapter then😉 Unless you don't want me to. Don't forget to vote and comment!💖💗❤

You're feelings are valid. You have every right to feel whatever emotion you want. You aren't being dramatic. You aren't over exaggerating. You're feeling. And that's okay.
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