nostalgia and memories

another song

***the amazing song***                                                                                                                                                       --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

this song reminds me of sixth grade. I was depressed but at that time I hadn't been diagnosed yet so I wasn't on meds as I am now. I guess you could say I was big sad XD :). I would sit around and listen to this song all-day-everyday waiting for my dad to come back from Turkey. these lyrics are literally imprinted into my skull. id fall asleep to it and play it in the shower and on the bus. I never got tired of it. id often try to numb myself using reckless methods, and this song kinda made me think. it kinda washed away all urges for a decent amount of time, and when they came back id just listens again...and again...and again. it numbed without endangering. id listen in the dark with my blinds open giving my room a gentle blue tint as I softly cried myself to sleep.