baby - alejandro rosario

chapter 3

*authors note ; holy shit. 93 reads??? i feel so bad for not consistently updating but i will now. i hope you guys have enjoyed it so far <3, on another note because of the whole Zach debacle, he will no longer be represented as josh and I will change it as soon as possible *

I am a very reflective person. I overthink people's actions and the way they move when they talk to others. I notice every single change in their voice when talking to their friends. I have always been this observative. yet, I can't figure out the kind of person Alejandro is. But yet again, we haven't been given enough moments together to know each other. if that makes sense.

It's not obsessive, I promise. I think my ability to overthink is more of a defense mechanism. It is me trying to figure out what kind of situation I'll be putting myself into and how I can prepare for it. I know it should not be this complicated when it comes to high school. But trust me, future me will be happy that I am.

Has Alejandro always been in this school? I seriously cannot remember ever seeing him or hearing about him yet he is the most talked-about boy in the halls.

I text Josh.

me: hey josh, i need your fbi skills for a sec

josh: que paso

me: I've been thinking about cute soccer boy and i finally got his name

josh: AH! i knew he was just your type mamas!! so do you wanna commence operation aiyandro?

me: omg that's gross!

josh: babygirl you know you love it LOL

me: LMAO right.. anyways has he always gone to school here?

josh: *typing*

josh: *read 4:43 pm*

me: josh?? hello?

josh: read

weird, i continue to text him but he keeps leaving me on read. as if he's left his phone off and was dealing with something, but he never leaves his phone off. he doesn't trust his parents and we both know that they will take it any chance they get.
what if something happened to him?
oh aiyana, you're just overthinking it.
*ding*
i quickly glanced at my phone and he's back! phew.

josh: okay girl,, you're not gonna like what i found out
me: wdym?

josh: well he didn't go to school here

me: ok... is there more?

josh: but he got expelled for drug dealing

me: what the fuck? josh how did u find that

josh: baby i'm joking with you. nah he just switched
schools thats ab it

me: THATS not funny

josh: LMAO yes it is, ur dumbass is just gullible.

i rolled my eyes and turned of my phone. interesting? why would he switch schools.
"aiyana!"
i got up from my bed and went down the stairs.
"yes mom?"
she was standing next to the door with 2 suitcases right next to her. i forgot, she had to go on a stupid business trip for a couple of days.
"mija, are you sure you can stay here all by yourself?" she asks me as she rubs my face with her hands
i nodded at her and smile
"no te preocupes ama. voy estar bien (dont worry mom i'll be okay)"
she takes a deep breath and opens the door
"okay mija, but if you need anything. your dads house is just a bike ride away"
i rolled my eyes.
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i used to be a daddies girl. him and i were in-fucking-separable. you would never see one without the other and it was just amazing. he would take me to the movies, play dolls with me, he would take me out for breakfast at our once favorite restaurant, Dennys. We would accidentally steal their milkshake cups but they never noticed. (we were there so often that they even knew our names)
but when you grow up. you become less naive. less blind to the situation that's happening in front of you. plus, the internet is a fucking bitch.

one day, me and josh were scrolling down through twitter and i saw this picture of my dad.
"josh." i patted him
he looked up at me as if i was crazy
"what? dumb bitch don't ever pat me like that again."
"look, doesn't that look like my dad?" i handed him my phone
he took the phone and zoomed into the photo. he looked at me with big eyes and tapped on his profile.
except, it wasn't his.
turns out, my dad was cheating on my mom with a girl 10 years younger then him and she actively posted about their fucking sex activities.
and let's just say
it was fuckinh disgusting and nothing like 50 shades of gray.
after that, it totally ruined my perception of him and i havent really talked to him since.
it's been around 5 years now.
me and mama are so much better without him.
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"aiyana please promise me that you won't do any locuras while i'm gone."
"yes mama i promise."
she kisses me on the forehead and proceeds to walk to her taxi. i help her with her bags and hugged goodbye.
"i love you aiyana."
"i love you more, mama"

and then, she was gone for the next week.