I'm sitting on the porch, Wind blowing through my hair. The ducks are frolicking in the pond, But I just can't seem to care.
Life goes on around me. I don't participate. I go through all the motions, But what I really do is wait.
I dream about the day That you'll come home to me. Nothing else is important. Why can't people see?
I don't want to go out. I don't want to have fun. I don't want to do a thing Until all is said and done.
They took you in the summer. Now fall is almost finished. Winter will be here very soon, And then the year will have diminished.
You have no idea how much I cry. I never let you know. It's so hard out here without you, But I'm not allowed to let it show.
I must pretend all is fine. Everyone thinks all's okay, But what I never ever tell them Is that I cry for you every day.
I Should've Known
I want to write, scream and shout But I'm sitting here with this doubt. I hate you for what you've done, But I love you for what you've helped me become, A strong woman who will put her foot down. My mind keeps replaying how you played me like a stupid clown. You say I messed up, that I was wrong. I knew what was going on all along. I sat there night after night wondering where you were. I should've known you were with her, Holding her the way I should've been held. Now I just wish you'd both burn in hell. I should've seen the emptiness in your eyes, But like an idiot I kept believing your stupid lies. You've scared me for life. How could you do this to your wife, A woman who gave you everything? But you just went out and sold our wedding rings. I see how much to you this marriage was worth, That you'd just throw me out in the dirt. For the next man I won't be able to open my heart. It doesn't matter how long we've been apart. The way that I loved you I will never love again. I still ask myself why did this have to end?
I Will Love You
With all of my heart I love you. I honestly, truly do. But with every angry word spoken, I become more resentful of you.
It's like we've forgotten our history. We've forgotten what we had before. And now I'm ever closer, it seems, To packing up and closing the door.
I imagined having your children, And what a beautiful thing it would be. Thought we'd find a house and settle down. Make four where there once was three.
But now those dreams are distant, Filled with a fog made up of fear. My body is fighting through the mist, But the doubt is all I hear.
Hostile hands and heavy hearts... They join together here. And in a flash, as quick as that, I've hurt you, and you me, my dear.
There is not much left that's not been broken In our path of hurt and despair. Broken glass and broken souls And disappointment reeks in the air.
Our spirits, once bright and so hopeful, Are now lost in the seas of regret, And when I reach out my hand to save them, My poor heart begins to fret.
The smiles we once wore as medals, To show the world we'd both found "the one," Are now tired, and fake, and phony. They are sure that we are done.
I lie awake and search for an answer, But my head and my heart are at war. Long gone are the days of no tears Say my eyes that are swollen and sore.
I believed that we'd work through it somehow. I hoped our love was stronger than it all, But I guess when you're up so high, my love, There's only a lot further to fall.
I try and remember all the good times, But they just seem so far away. Now I'm just tired and bitter, And I don't have the strength to stay.
I wanted so much for a miracle. I tried so hard to change my view, But it shouldn't take a miracle To keep me from leaving you.
For all this time, I have loved you, Even when my heart feels filled with hate. When I raise my voice and spew vile words, I still love you so much that it aches.
And I will continue to love you always, Even when we've both moved on. Even when we have our own families, I will love you, even when it's wrong.
Tears Of A Broken Heart
I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return? A broken heart. I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat. I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions. I gave you all the trust, but you misused it. I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right. I gave you my life and you killed me day by day. I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece so I no longer love you. I want to lose my memory so I no longer think of you. I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you. I want to cry, but I no longer have any more tears to fall down my sad, lonely face. I want to sleep, but my dreams haunt me with you in them. I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do? I don't want anyone to see this, not even you. How do I get out of this? How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery? I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way you do, The way you look at me, The way you say my name, The sound of your voice when you tell me that you care. I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night. How can I forget you? If the only love I know is you. How can I move on? If life is not the same without you. I want to break free and move on, but I think I'll be doing something wrong. I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.
Please Don't Leave My Love
My words were not that of a kind person. Hurtful words that should have never entered my mind But they did, and they can be erased in time.
Just watch, you'll see. I'll try harder; it'll get better. I promise I will be better.
I'll smile every time I see you. There has got to be something that I can do or say, Something that will make you want to stay.
Don't leave me alone, not like this. I only just found you, my only one. We can't possibly be over and done.
Please, tell me I'm still in your heart. Let me show you that I can appreciate you more Every day, more than the day before.
PLEASE, I LOVE YOU! And he turned with glazed eyes "I love you, too."
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